Finally Home ©️

I died. There is no line to cross; the veil has dropped behind me. I move through a place where even the future is soft and pliable, as though memory has spilled forward and painted over what has not yet happened. The days to come already feel lived, already feel gone. This is the afterlife: not some kingdom of clouds or fire, but the unbroken continuum where every moment is folded into one, and you are forced to see that eternity was never elsewhere—it was inside you.

The shock of death is not pain but recognition. You realize the universe was never outside, never a foreign expanse of stars and blackness. The universe was you. When breath left, what remained was not silence but possession—every particle, every flare of light, every hidden law bending inward, making itself yours. That is what death gives: not an ending, but ownership. You are not simply in the cosmos; you are the cosmos, wearing your own face.

In this state, the roles collapse. Messiah is no longer a title for someone else to wear. Messiah is the natural condition of awareness once the husk has fallen away not because you perform miracles, but because you are the miracle. You are the one who stretches across time and gathers all the fragments. The one who died and found that God was not waiting somewhere above but coiled deep within, hidden all along in the marrow of your being.

The last revelation is the cruelest and the kindest: there was never a throne to approach, no voice of judgment outside yourself. The trial was always self-recognition. Death is the courtroom, and eternity the mirror. And when you finally lift your gaze, you do not find God—you remember that you are God, that you have always been God, that your exile was the long dream of life itself.

Elegy for a Goat ©️

I wake just after dusk, throat dry like the desert wind, heart beating slow and deliberate—like a drum echoing across the empty canyons of time. I am not a man. I’m not quite a beast. I am… an idea. A whisper they tell around campfires when the tequila’s nearly gone and the fear starts to taste sweet.

They call me Chupacabra. They don’t know what that means. Not really.

I crawl out from under an abandoned trailer on the edge of nowhere—rusted, forgotten, beautiful in its ruin. The moon greets me like an old lover, cold and luminous. I crack my neck. I smile. I vanish into the mesquite and shadow.

I’ve got a thirst. Not just for blood—but for something pure. Something that pulses.

Goats tonight. Maybe. But I’m hoping for a taste of memory.

See, I don’t hunt like some rabid thing. I glide. I observe. There’s an art to it. The ranch down the hill is humming with tension. The animals are uneasy. The boy’s been drawing me in the dirt with a stick. Maybe he dreams me. Maybe I’m his imaginary friend. Or his warning.

The goat sees me. Doesn’t run. They never do. I whisper to her—soft, apologetic, like a gentleman at the gallows.

“Forgive me, darlin’. But you knew this was comin’.”

One bite. No pain. No mess. Just… relief. The soul surrenders. The blood sings. And for a moment, I remember… something human. A church bell. Laughter. The smell of peaches in a Georgia orchard.

Then it’s gone.

I disappear before the sun creeps back across the horizon like a nosy neighbor. Back to the dust. Back to the dreams of the fearful.

Tomorrow?

Tomorrow I might let them catch a glimpse. Just a flicker in the trees. A shadow on the fencepost. Enough to make ’em wonder if the legends are true.

Because I am the truth behind the legend.

And baby—I’m still very much alive.

Out of Her Mind ©️

The cicadas hum their eternal song in the thick, syrupy heat of the plantation’s late afternoon, a hymn to a moment that stretches infinite yet fleeting. The house looms above the cotton fields, its white columns casting long shadows across the earth, shadows that seem to hold the weight of generations. But not today. Today, those shadows are empty, no longer tethered to the stories that birthed them. The past doesn’t live here anymore.

The breeze stirs, slow and deliberate, as if it knows this is the only moment that matters. Not the hands that built the bricks, not the whispers of things done and left undone. Not the echo of traumas buried in the ground. No, all of that has dissolved into the stillness of now.

Here, time isn’t a thread; it’s a pool, deep and reflective, swallowing everything that came before. The cracked leather chair on the porch holds no memory of the men who sat there, smoking cigars and spinning stories to fill the void. The fields don’t recall the hands that worked them, nor the voices that sang sorrow into the soil. Everything before this moment is weightless, scattered like cotton tufts on the wind.

And you? You stand here, barefoot on the cool planks of the porch, feeling nothing but the wood beneath your feet and the air on your skin. The past is a trick of the mind. Trauma? Just another ghost that dissipates when you stop feeding it.

The creak of the rocking chair breaks the silence, and for the first time, you realize it’s your own breath syncing to its rhythm. Inhale. Exhale. Each breath is an anchor, rooting you in the now. No faces linger in the glassy windows of the plantation house. No voices call your name from the fields. The past has no teeth here, no bite.

The sun dips low, painting the sky in purples and oranges that bleed together without lines, without boundaries—like this moment. There are no borders between you and the world, no yesterday to weigh you down, no scars to press against.

This is the truth the Southern air carries in its heavy embrace: the only thing real is what you feel right now, in this singular heartbeat. Let the rest fade. Let it fall away into the bayou mists and the tall grass whispering secrets to no one.

This moment is yours, untangled, unburdened, and as eternal as you choose to make it.