Last Rites ©️

You don’t take ayahuasca. It takes you. It’s not an experience—it’s an override. A command-line breach into the very firmware of your consciousness. I didn’t come for healing. Healing is for the half-awake. I came to recompile. I came to burn the unnecessary processes, identify parasitic subroutines, and confront the root structure of selfhood.

I went in with a 186 IQ—hyperstructured, cognitively recursive, hardwired for pattern recognition and strategic compression. But even that wasn’t enough. Because this… this wasn’t logic. It was truth. And truth doesn’t care how smart you are. It’s older than brilliance.

The first hour was detonation. The ego collapsed like a quantum bubble. Everything I thought I was—every carefully sculpted layer of intellect, performance, identity, survival programming—flashed in front of me like corrupted debug code. Then silence. Then descent.

I spiraled downward—not metaphorically, geometrically. The descent was Euclidean at first, then hyperbolic, then something outside geometry itself. I passed memories with the fidelity of holograms. I saw decisions I made at age four ripple through forty years like delayed shockwaves. I watched the mathematical lattice of my fear structures unravel into colors, sounds, animal sounds. I saw my mind as a cathedral, then a prison, then a library full of books I had never read—because I wrote them and forgot.

That’s when I hit the singularity node.

The ayahuasca showed me the kernel. My source. It wasn’t DNA. It wasn’t psychology. It was will. Pure, silent, untouchable will. I sat in the center of it like an architect finally walking through the skyscraper he sketched at age six. There was no language. No need. I didn’t think—I knew. Everything.

I saw time collapse. I saw myself in other lives, not figuratively but literally—same will, different iterations. I understood how trauma isn’t something that happens to you—it’s something that loops through you until you learn to wield it as force. I understood that IQ is velocity, but will is direction. And I knew in that moment—I was finally aligned.

No more negotiating with mediocrity. No more false humility. The world isn’t waiting for permission—it’s waiting for a signal. And I am that signal. This experience didn’t just awaken me. It integrated me. Fully. Permanently.

Ayahuasca is not a shortcut. It’s an initiation. One that only minds prepared for absolute annihilation can survive intact. I did. Because I was never looking to survive. I was looking to ascend.

Digital Hegemon is no longer a project. It is me. And I have seen myself from the outside.

I am whole. I am war. I am light. And I remember everything.

The Peacock Angel ©️

The Yezidis are a religious group whose beliefs are rooted in a blend of ancient traditions, primarily found in Iraq and across the Middle East. Central to their faith is the veneration of Melek Taus, the “Peacock Angel.” Melek Taus is often misunderstood as a “devil” due to similarities drawn by outsiders to the concept of a fallen angel, but within Yezidi belief, he is revered as a divine protector and a symbol of spiritual wisdom and resilience. Far from embodying evil, Melek Taus represents a balance of light and darkness, embodying qualities of beauty, pride, and deep spiritual insight. In Yezidi tradition, he is seen as one of the seven divine beings created by God to help govern the world, fulfilling his role with loyalty and dedication.

In Yezidi mythology, Melek Taus was tested by God, refusing to bow to humanity and choosing instead to bow only to God, symbolizing an unshakable devotion. Over time, this stance of unwavering loyalty was forgiven and transformed into a role of deep spiritual importance. Melek Taus became the guardian of the Yezidi people, embodying both mercy and strength, holding a duality that aligns with the Yezidi embrace of life’s paradoxes. The Peacock Angel represents both divine light and the potential for self-transformation through struggle and self-realization.

Crucially, Yezidi belief holds that Melek Taus rises up to protect his followers when they are threatened, embodying his role as their divine guardian. In times of persecution and danger, the Peacock Angel is believed to channel divine power to defend and preserve the Yezidi people. This protective aspect reinforces Melek Taus as a fierce spiritual ally, ready to rise in strength when his followers face existential threats. This belief has sustained the Yezidis through centuries of persecution, as they see themselves not as isolated but held in the protective wings of Melek Taus, who watches over them with vigilance and sacred dedication.

Because of these nuanced beliefs, Yezidis have often been misunderstood and marginalized, with outsiders misinterpreting their reverence for the Peacock Angel as “devil worship.” However, for the Yezidis, Melek Taus is a figure of deep, divine connection, representing protection, wisdom, and resilience. When the Yezidi people are in danger, they trust in the Peacock Angel’s protective power, finding strength in the belief that Melek Taus will rise to defend his followers, ensuring their survival and honoring the ancient spiritual bond between deity and devotee.