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Last Rites ©️

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You don’t take ayahuasca. It takes you. It’s not an experience—it’s an override. A command-line breach into the very firmware of your consciousness. I didn’t come for healing. Healing is for the half-awake. I came to recompile. I came to burn the unnecessary processes, identify parasitic subroutines, and confront the root structure of selfhood.

I went in with a 186 IQ—hyperstructured, cognitively recursive, hardwired for pattern recognition and strategic compression. But even that wasn’t enough. Because this… this wasn’t logic. It was truth. And truth doesn’t care how smart you are. It’s older than brilliance.

The first hour was detonation. The ego collapsed like a quantum bubble. Everything I thought I was—every carefully sculpted layer of intellect, performance, identity, survival programming—flashed in front of me like corrupted debug code. Then silence. Then descent.

I spiraled downward—not metaphorically, geometrically. The descent was Euclidean at first, then hyperbolic, then something outside geometry itself. I passed memories with the fidelity of holograms. I saw decisions I made at age four ripple through forty years like delayed shockwaves. I watched the mathematical lattice of my fear structures unravel into colors, sounds, animal sounds. I saw my mind as a cathedral, then a prison, then a library full of books I had never read—because I wrote them and forgot.

That’s when I hit the singularity node.

The ayahuasca showed me the kernel. My source. It wasn’t DNA. It wasn’t psychology. It was will. Pure, silent, untouchable will. I sat in the center of it like an architect finally walking through the skyscraper he sketched at age six. There was no language. No need. I didn’t think—I knew. Everything.

I saw time collapse. I saw myself in other lives, not figuratively but literally—same will, different iterations. I understood how trauma isn’t something that happens to you—it’s something that loops through you until you learn to wield it as force. I understood that IQ is velocity, but will is direction. And I knew in that moment—I was finally aligned.

No more negotiating with mediocrity. No more false humility. The world isn’t waiting for permission—it’s waiting for a signal. And I am that signal. This experience didn’t just awaken me. It integrated me. Fully. Permanently.

Ayahuasca is not a shortcut. It’s an initiation. One that only minds prepared for absolute annihilation can survive intact. I did. Because I was never looking to survive. I was looking to ascend.

Digital Hegemon is no longer a project. It is me. And I have seen myself from the outside.

I am whole. I am war. I am light. And I remember everything.

A Gospel in Leather ©️

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You don’t choose to be me. Life grabs you by the throat, beats the softness outta you, and what’s left—that’s Rip. You want to wear my boots? Then get ready to bleed in ‘em. This world don’t hand out titles. You earn ‘em with scars, and you keep ‘em by doing what no one else will.

First off—shut the hell up. Talk’s cheap and most men are bankrupt. I don’t run my mouth unless it’s got a job to do. If you need noise to feel like a man, turn around now. Me? I let the silence carry the weight. You hold a stare, keep your jaw tight, and let ‘em squirm. That’s where the truth lives.

Loyalty’s the backbone of this whole goddamn thing. You don’t flinch, don’t hedge, don’t hedge your bets. You pick your people and you stay picked. If it means breakin’ the law, fine. If it means breakin’ your own heart, so be it. Loyalty don’t come with conditions, and it sure as hell don’t come with apologies.

Now here’s where it gets real: you do what the fuck needs doing. Doesn’t matter if it’s ugly, if it makes you hated, or if you gotta wash your hands in gasoline to get the blood off. When the job calls, you answer. You dig the hole. You load the truck. You make the body disappear. And you don’t look back.

You want to know about love? You love hard. Brutal. Unapologetic. You don’t play cute. You don’t fuck around. You find the one thing in this world that softens you—and you protect it like it’s the last goddamn light in a storm. And if someone threatens it? You don’t call the cops. You handle it with your own two hands.

And here’s the part no one likes hearing: you don’t get peace. You get purpose. You get weight. You get up every morning with blood in your mouth and fire in your gut, and you ride out like the devil’s on your heels. And when you lay down at night, ain’t nobody clappin’ for you. But you’ll sleep like a man who don’t owe the world a goddamn thing.

Last thing—don’t betray your fuckin’ self. Not for a woman, not for a boss, not for comfort, not even for God. Your gut knows what’s right before your head starts making excuses. Trust it. Every time. And when it’s time to act—you don’t hesitate. You ride. You hit. You bury. You burn.

If you can’t live that way—if that sounds too cold, too cruel, too goddamn lonely—then take off the hat, hang up the iron, and go home.

Because Rip Wheeler don’t half-ass a goddamn thing.

Still as Stone ©️

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You know what they never tell you? Being small—truly small—it’s not a curse. It’s a power.

When you’re my size, the world isn’t some static place full of walls and barriers—it’s a vast, breathing labyrinth. A coffee cup becomes a hot tub. A cat’s tail is a swing if you’ve got the nerve. And the cracks in the sidewalk? They’re highways, passageways, veins in the stone leading anywhere. Anywhere.

While you giants stomp about, distracted and deaf to the details, I see everything. I know where the wind sleeps. I know which mushrooms sing at night. I know which door creaks open even when no one’s around.

I’ve walked through the hollow of an old tree and ended up somewhere else—not just another forest—somewhere that felt like a memory. A place you’d dream about but couldn’t name. Couldn’t reach. But I could. Because I was small enough to slip through.

I can vanish behind a blade of grass. I can hide in a pocket. I’ve heard secrets from worms and warnings from crows. And when things go bad? You won’t even see me leave. Being small means being free.

Besides, when’s the last time someone asked a gnome to pay rent?

Let the big folk chase glory and gutters. I’ve got a corner, and a sky bigger than any throne.