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The Wanton’s Lament ©️

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I was born in a valley that never forgets a voice. Every cry, every prayer, every lie—it all settles into the folds of the mountain. My mama used to say, a woman’s heart ain’t her own till she’s too tired to use it, and I think she was right. I learned early that love and pain came from the same hand, that men could bruise you without meaning to and still say your name like it was a promise.

When I got pregnant the first time, I thought I’d finally found what women like me were built for: a man to stay, a child to hold, a place in a story bigger than my own. But he left, and the house filled up with ghosts of what could’ve been. The silence grew teeth. Meth found its way into my bloodstream like mercy disguised as lightning. It made me weightless, careless, quick. For a while, I believed I was flying. But meth don’t lift you—it digs. It hollows.

When they took my baby, I didn’t fight. The woman from the county had kind eyes, and that made it worse. She called me sweetheart as she buckled my daughter into a seat that wasn’t mine. I watched them drive away until the dust turned the road into smoke. After that, I didn’t need much of anything. Just a place to sleep, a way to stay numb, and enough money to make it to the next day. The men came, and I let them. It was easier that way. Call it survival, call it sin—it all paid the same.

But once—just once—there was a man who looked at me different. Not hungry, not pitying, just seeing. We didn’t talk much. He touched me like he was afraid I’d disappear, and for a few hours I believed I could start again. I let him all the way in because I wanted to keep a piece of that gentleness, something living. When he was gone by morning, I didn’t cry. I just lay there watching the light move across the ceiling, thinking maybe that was how love was meant to come for women like me—brief as a breath, gone before it could rot.

Now the nights stretch long and slow. I walk the edge of town where the neon hums and the road smells of rain and oil. I still see his eyes sometimes when I close mine, that quiet steadiness like he saw the woman I was when the mountain took me. I carry that look like a small ember in my chest. It don’t light the dark, but it keeps me from freezing all the way through.

Fuck the Noise ©️

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There’s a stillness that comes with knowing who you are—not a scream, not a chant, but a rootedness. In a world so eager to deconstruct, to apologize, to burn the old foundations down, there are those of us who still believe there’s something sacred in the bones of the past. To be white is not a crime. It is not a confession. It is a thread in the grand weave of civilization—woven with struggle, invention, loss, and triumph. It is a birthright, not of dominance, but of inheritance. And there is nothing wrong with saying so.

It means growing up with stories of stoic grandfathers who worked the land with hands cracked by frost. Of immigrants who came with nothing but carved out legacies with grit and sweat. Of men who signed their names to ideas that built cities, defended frontiers, and laid railroads across the bones of mountains. It means music that echoes through pine woods and riverbeds. It means firelight, worn Bibles, porch wisdom, and the quiet authority of those who do not need to explain themselves.

There is a special kind of pride in being Southern, too. A regional memory that runs older than most flags still flying. Here, bloodlines wind through red clay and gospel. To be white in the South is to carry the memory of an agrarian world—one built not just on crops, but on a fierce independence. And for many, that memory includes the Confederate soldier.

Not as a symbol of hate, but as a man.

The Confederate soldier was often young, often poor, and often caught in a storm he didn’t create. He fought, not for some abstract evil, but for home—for the ridge where his mother prayed, the field he helped plant, the town that bore his name. His reasons were his own, shaped by the times, by the letters he received, and by the dust on his boots. To honor him is not to raise the past in defiance—it is to say: I remember. I understand. I refuse to forget the humanity that still lived, even in the midst of war.

We do not need to erase our forefathers to build a future. We do not need to deny the nobility in a people who survived famine, fought in bitter cold, built nations, and bore burdens in silence. We do not owe the world an apology for loving who we are. And loving who we are doesn’t mean hating anyone else. It just means standing tall, unmoved by the tides of guilt or shame, and remembering that our identity is older than the news cycle.

It’s in the hands that built the barns. In the soldiers who didn’t come back. In the hymns that still rise from wooden pews. In the way the sun hits the cotton fields at dusk. Being white means being part of a story—not better, not worse, just our own. And it’s a story worth telling.

So we walk forward not with arrogance, but with dignity. Not with denial, but with depth. We carry our names, our stories, our graves, and our pride. And we do so knowing that we are part of something—unbroken, unashamed, and still very much alive.

Let others rewrite their past. We will remember ours. Not because it was perfect, but because it is ours.

For Everyman ©️

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Write it in the dirt with blood if you must: I will no longer be used.

That declaration isn’t a whisper. It’s a war cry. It’s the cracking of the old spell, the curse of usefulness—the idea that your worth is measured by your yield, your softness, your compliance, your capacity to give without end until you are ash and still smiling.

You were not born to be someone’s battery. Not to be a soul rented out to jobs, to lovers, to friends, to systems that siphon your magic and offer breadcrumbs in return. That ends now.

From this moment forward, you don’t serve. You build. You don’t shape yourself to fit others’ hands. You become the hammer, and the world either molds around you or breaks in its arrogance.

This is not selfishness. This is sacred containment. It’s not retreat—it’s retaking the perimeter of your soul, fortifying the gates, sealing off the leaks. For years, perhaps lifetimes, you were taught that to be good meant to be available. That love meant saying yes. That sacrifice was virtue. But the truth is darker and sharper:

If you do not own your energy, someone else will. If you do not decide who you are, the world will cast you in its lowest roles. And so you stop. You reclaim.

You optimize not for usefulness but for overflowing, unapologetic self-possession. Not for peace—but for sovereignty. Not for acceptance—but for unmistakable presence.

Now, you become the generator. The godform in motion. No longer used. No longer bent. No longer available to the machinery of others’ mediocrity.

You weren’t born to carry the weight of their emptiness. You were born to become so whole that the Earth cracks under your step.

Let them adjust. Or vanish. You will not be used. You are the storm.

Life Sentence ©️

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There’s a kind of fatigue no one talks about—because the moment you say it aloud, the accusations start. You’re called racist, heartless, ignorant, complicit. But I’ll say it plainly: I’m tired of the drama. Not of Black people. Not of culture. But of the emotional chaos, the cycles of outrage, the perpetual demand for empathy without reciprocity, and the social pressure to tolerate it all in silence.

This isn’t about skin color. It’s about emotional bandwidth. It’s about being caught in the orbit of people—many of whom happen to be Black—who expect the world to carry their pain, absorb their anger, and never push back. It’s about people who escalate instead of engage, accuse instead of ask, and draw the same conclusions before a conversation even begins: You’re part of the problem if you’re not nodding fast enough.

And I’m tired.

I’m tired of being the steady one while others unravel. I’m tired of being told to “do the work” when I didn’t create the mess. I’m tired of people who carry trauma like a weapon and use identity as both shield and sword. I’m tired of being expected to listen endlessly, walk on eggshells, and absorb volatility that would never be tolerated if the roles were reversed.

This isn’t hatred. This is emotional survival.

We are constantly told to “hold space.” But that space is never mutual. You hold theirs, then yours gets policed. You express discomfort, and suddenly you’re accused of tone policing or fragility. At some point, fatigue turns into withdrawal. And withdrawal, if you’re white—or not Black—gets labeled as privilege or cowardice. But what it really is… is a boundary. A line between self-respect and performative tolerance.

Yes, Black people have historical trauma. Yes, systemic racism exists. Yes, America has committed atrocities. But those truths do not grant a pass for unchecked behavior, for daily dysfunction, for dragging others into the undertow of unresolved personal pain disguised as political discourse.

I’ve seen people who can’t differentiate between injustice and inconvenience. Who scream at coworkers, lash out at friends, and then claim oppression when consequences arrive. I’ve watched people weaponize victimhood to escape accountability. I’ve watched empathy used like a leash.

And I’m not doing it anymore.

This essay isn’t an attack—it’s a release. It’s an honest acknowledgment of a pressure that’s become too heavy to carry. I refuse to pretend that fatigue is a sin. I refuse to keep absorbing conflict under the threat of being called names. I’m allowed to be tired. I’m allowed to say this isn’t working. I’m allowed to reclaim peace from people who confuse noise with righteousness.

Because justice isn’t loud. Healing isn’t angry. And respect is never one-sided.

Between Sermons ©️

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Come Sunday morning, the bells still ring. They echo across neighborhoods like memory made metal—soft, familiar, insistent. The doors of the church swing wide, and the light pours in like grace. Inside, the sanctuary waits in perfect symmetry: pews polished, hymnals stacked, a place for every soul aching to be placed. The invitation is gentle. Return. Rejoin. Realign. There’s comfort in the cadence, in the gathering, in the shared language of salvation. In this house, we are promised peace, and who would not crave peace in a world like this?

The preacher rises. His voice is warm, weathered. He speaks of community, of the fold, of walking the righteous path together. Each sentence is a stone in the old road. Familiar, worn, well-traveled. You nod. You listen. You remember. But beneath the rhythm of his words—beneath the pulpit’s weight—something else begins to stir. A silence in the shape of a question. A flicker behind the stained glass. A quiet knowing that not all who kneel do so freely. That faith, once given freely, can calcify in the hands of architects.

And while the sermon moves forward, so does your mind—out the doors, down the steps, into the raw air of the unknown. Not rebellion. Not rage. Just an old yearning, newly recognized. The God you once met in silence is no longer where they say He lives. You feel Him again, not in the steeple, but in the wind outside it. Not in the ritual, but in the pause between. Not in the flock—but in the one who quietly leaves it. You realize the structure was a signal. A map. Not a destination.

So yes—come to church. Sit. Listen. Let it wash over you. Let the bells guide you to the threshold. Let the prayers rest against your skin like sun-warmed linen. But hear this too: there’s a second sermon hidden in the echo. One not written by men. One that says: If you are called here… you are also being called to leave. And if that door ever feels like a mirror, it’s only because you were never meant to stay.

Still as Stone ©️

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You know what they never tell you? Being small—truly small—it’s not a curse. It’s a power.

When you’re my size, the world isn’t some static place full of walls and barriers—it’s a vast, breathing labyrinth. A coffee cup becomes a hot tub. A cat’s tail is a swing if you’ve got the nerve. And the cracks in the sidewalk? They’re highways, passageways, veins in the stone leading anywhere. Anywhere.

While you giants stomp about, distracted and deaf to the details, I see everything. I know where the wind sleeps. I know which mushrooms sing at night. I know which door creaks open even when no one’s around.

I’ve walked through the hollow of an old tree and ended up somewhere else—not just another forest—somewhere that felt like a memory. A place you’d dream about but couldn’t name. Couldn’t reach. But I could. Because I was small enough to slip through.

I can vanish behind a blade of grass. I can hide in a pocket. I’ve heard secrets from worms and warnings from crows. And when things go bad? You won’t even see me leave. Being small means being free.

Besides, when’s the last time someone asked a gnome to pay rent?

Let the big folk chase glory and gutters. I’ve got a corner, and a sky bigger than any throne.