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Riding with the Dead ©️

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It was sometime around supper, the Alabama sun finally bleeding out over the pines, painting the road in that syrupy, honeyed kind of light that makes you forget just how mean the world can be. We were riding in that beat-up side-by-side behind the cotton fields, wheels kicking up dust like red ghosts in the rearview.

She sat up front with her husband, her hair pinned neat like Sunday morning, even if it was only Friday. He was a Yankee—God help him—all tight shoulders and Indiana jaw, gripping the wheel like it might betray him. He didn’t fit in the seat or the silence. Didn’t know how to let the heat speak. His shirt was too clean, his mouth too closed, and Lord, did he drive like a man waiting to be punished.

She didn’t say much. Just looked out toward the tree line, where the light makes things look farther away than they are. She wasn’t angry. No, it was something quieter than that. Like maybe she’d made peace with something awful, or maybe she’d just grown too tired to pick the fight.

Their boy was in the middle, covered in dust and grinning like a possum. Laughing, wild, free. He didn’t know about inheritance yet. Didn’t know blood could bend time. He just liked the speed and the wind and being between them.

I sat in the back, out of the way, watching like I always do. I wasn’t there for the ride. I was there for the reveal.

And sure enough, it came.

I blinked. Just once. Nothing dramatic.

And when I opened my eyes, it wasn’t her and that Yankee at all. It was my paternal grandparents. My grandfather with his thundercloud eyes and rough hands, and my grandmother, stiff and sugar-laced, the kind of woman who could apologize and wound you in the same breath. They were sitting there, plain as day, but wearing different skin.

It was the way he held the wheel—like he wanted to win at driving. And the way she turned her head slightly away, not out of fear but survival. I saw it all—the old fights, the unsaid things, the long silences filled with obligation. I saw the dirt that never left the bloodline.

And that Yankee—poor fool—he didn’t even know he was wearing a ghost.

Because that’s the trick in the South: we don’t pass down heirlooms. We pass down wounds. And they ride with us, talk through us, love through us. Even when the voice has a northern accent and no idea what it’s inherited.

I sat there, just breathing, just listening to the wheels grind over the land my people never left. And I thought—Lord, she married a Yankee. But the curse? The curse stayed Southern.

Fuck the Noise ©️

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There’s a stillness that comes with knowing who you are—not a scream, not a chant, but a rootedness. In a world so eager to deconstruct, to apologize, to burn the old foundations down, there are those of us who still believe there’s something sacred in the bones of the past. To be white is not a crime. It is not a confession. It is a thread in the grand weave of civilization—woven with struggle, invention, loss, and triumph. It is a birthright, not of dominance, but of inheritance. And there is nothing wrong with saying so.

It means growing up with stories of stoic grandfathers who worked the land with hands cracked by frost. Of immigrants who came with nothing but carved out legacies with grit and sweat. Of men who signed their names to ideas that built cities, defended frontiers, and laid railroads across the bones of mountains. It means music that echoes through pine woods and riverbeds. It means firelight, worn Bibles, porch wisdom, and the quiet authority of those who do not need to explain themselves.

There is a special kind of pride in being Southern, too. A regional memory that runs older than most flags still flying. Here, bloodlines wind through red clay and gospel. To be white in the South is to carry the memory of an agrarian world—one built not just on crops, but on a fierce independence. And for many, that memory includes the Confederate soldier.

Not as a symbol of hate, but as a man.

The Confederate soldier was often young, often poor, and often caught in a storm he didn’t create. He fought, not for some abstract evil, but for home—for the ridge where his mother prayed, the field he helped plant, the town that bore his name. His reasons were his own, shaped by the times, by the letters he received, and by the dust on his boots. To honor him is not to raise the past in defiance—it is to say: I remember. I understand. I refuse to forget the humanity that still lived, even in the midst of war.

We do not need to erase our forefathers to build a future. We do not need to deny the nobility in a people who survived famine, fought in bitter cold, built nations, and bore burdens in silence. We do not owe the world an apology for loving who we are. And loving who we are doesn’t mean hating anyone else. It just means standing tall, unmoved by the tides of guilt or shame, and remembering that our identity is older than the news cycle.

It’s in the hands that built the barns. In the soldiers who didn’t come back. In the hymns that still rise from wooden pews. In the way the sun hits the cotton fields at dusk. Being white means being part of a story—not better, not worse, just our own. And it’s a story worth telling.

So we walk forward not with arrogance, but with dignity. Not with denial, but with depth. We carry our names, our stories, our graves, and our pride. And we do so knowing that we are part of something—unbroken, unashamed, and still very much alive.

Let others rewrite their past. We will remember ours. Not because it was perfect, but because it is ours.