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Threshold in Layers ©️

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I opened Photoshop in those years when its 3D option was still alive, buried inside the menus like a forbidden gate. It seemed like nothing at first, just geometry on a screen, a toy for designers and restless insomniacs. But when I bent that space into a curve, when I drew the throat of the wormhole, I realized form was never neutral. Form follows function, and the function of a wormhole is not to sit still. Its function is passage. Passage means rupture. Rupture means the end of one order and the birth of another.

I remember the way the swing sets at the Dead Children’s Playground creaked without wind, the way gravel shifted under my shoes as if something below wanted to surface. My Photoshop file mirrored the playground itself, a tunnel where shadows slipped in and out, where absence pressed itself into presence. The wormhole I made on screen began to echo in that place, and in that echo I felt the law seal itself: what is formed insists on its function, and the function I had birthed was connection between what should never have touched.

It did not roar into being like myth suggests. It whispered, pixel by pixel, like a candle flame licking at paper. The merry-go-round turned half a degree. The swings twisted. The chains clinked in time with the low hum of my computer fan. In that moment, the wormhole was no longer a digital experiment. It was a mouth, and the children who had never left Huntsville gathered close to its teeth.

I had thought I was playing, bending light into tunnels. What I had done was give geometry to inevitability. The universe leans toward openings, and when I carved one in Photoshop, the rest of existence bowed to it. A world can begin with fire, with thunder, with a god’s decree. Mine began with a click, with the dead recognizing themselves in the spiral I shaped. The playground was their cathedral, the screen their altar, and I their unwilling architect. That was the start of the world, not in triumph, not in blaze, but in quiet insistence, in the breathless recognition that once form is given, function cannot be denied.

Before the Blast ©️

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We were just driving. That’s all it was supposed to be — a ride down into the valley for a routine psych appointment. My mother was in the driver’s seat, calm like always, masking her concern with small talk and soft smiles. I was riding beside her, trying to stay grounded, trying to pretend I was just another man on another errand.

But something shifted.

It wasn’t a hallucination, not the way they define it. It was a voice — realer than sound, quieter than thought — speaking with a clarity no language could improve. It said only one thing at first:

“Protect your mother.”

That was the moment time warped. I looked over at her — her hands on the wheel, her eyes on the road — and I felt it in my chest: the sense that something impossible was already happening. The voice kept speaking, not in panic, not in fear, but like a military order from God.

It told me there would be a supraliminal nuclear blast on Monte Sano, the mountain that rises over the valley like an ancient sentinel. We were just a mile away from it — close enough for whatever was coming. The voice said it would be a spiritual event cloaked in physical terms. Not a bomb anyone would record. But an event that would reverberate through souls, not screens.

And I saw it. I saw the flash before the fire, a white cross crowning the mountain like the sign at Fatima, a signal of judgment. I didn’t question it. I didn’t hesitate. I did the only thing I could: I moved between my mother and the blast, shielding her with my body, even though the world around me remained still.

To everyone else, I looked like I had lost it.

But I hadn’t lost it. I had intercepted something. Something meant for her. The knowledge was too vast. The light was too hot. I unraveled in real time. My body became the signal and the shield. My voice split into many voices. I thrashed, I screamed, I followed the instructions exactly — even though no one else could hear them.

It took nine cops and a heavy sedative to bring me down. I remember the taste of the dirt, the weight of bodies on mine, the piercing scream of the sirens that came after the silence.

And then I remember waking up three days later in a psych ward, disoriented, bruised, and blank — the world fuzzy and padded. I had been chemically silenced. I was in a place where people don’t believe in prophecy. They believe in symptoms.

But even there — locked away, forgotten by the world I tried to save — I heard the voice again. Not in words this time, but in pure knowing. A warmth. A presence. The voice of God without the theatrics. It didn’t tell me I was right. It didn’t congratulate me. It just was — calm, steady, and eternal.

And in that silence I understood:

I had followed the call. I had protected my mother. I had stood in front of the unseen blast.

They can call it madness. But I call it intervention.

And even now — even medicated, even branded — I know this:

I was the firewall.

And I would do it again.

Blackhole Sun ©️

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I didn’t change.

The world did.

They called it madness. They called it a breakdown. They didn’t understand.

I was successful.

Inside my brain, I spun a disc — slow at first, a lazy orbit — then faster, tighter, until it was carving into the fabric of everything around me.

Reality bent.

Time cracked.

I didn’t need a machine.

I became the machine.

One morning, I woke up under a radioactive sun.

The 1950s lived in my blood like molten steel.

I felt Bear Bryant standing inside my chest, whistling at his boys, calling the plays only I could hear.

It wasn’t nostalgia.

It wasn’t a dream.

It was real — more real than any plastic day this world tries to sell you now.

For an hour, maybe less, I walked in the full power of it.

I looked at the sky and it looked back at me.

I owned it.

It was my world.

Every inch of it.

Every atom sang in my voice.

Then the break came.

The disc spun so hard the grooves ripped open.

Visions bled through —

Father Bear lumbering through shattered trees,

the Ant Queen looming with her terrible crown,

the ghost of a girl I once loved brushing past my shoulder like smoke.

The world around me accelerated, cracked, peeled away like bad wallpaper.

They left me there at the boathouse — thought I was finished.

They thought I would collapse, beg for the old order to save me.

But I didn’t.

I stayed Bear Bryant.

I stayed radioactive.

I stayed carved from that hour of holy, burning sunlight.

Because I knew — in the marrow of my bones —

I had done it.

I had traveled time.

I had cracked the code.

I had crossed over without ever leaving my body.

They thought the cost would kill me.

They didn’t know it made me.

I am still here.

The disc still spins, deep in the dark of my mind, humming like an engine ready to fire.

The world can speed up, slow down, fall to pieces —

I’ll still be standing on my field, under my sun, whistling my plays, walking with God.

Because I didn’t change.

I changed the world.

And I’ll do it again if I have to.