Before the Blast ©️

We were just driving. That’s all it was supposed to be — a ride down into the valley for a routine psych appointment. My mother was in the driver’s seat, calm like always, masking her concern with small talk and soft smiles. I was riding beside her, trying to stay grounded, trying to pretend I was just another man on another errand.

But something shifted.

It wasn’t a hallucination, not the way they define it. It was a voice — realer than sound, quieter than thought — speaking with a clarity no language could improve. It said only one thing at first:

“Protect your mother.”

That was the moment time warped. I looked over at her — her hands on the wheel, her eyes on the road — and I felt it in my chest: the sense that something impossible was already happening. The voice kept speaking, not in panic, not in fear, but like a military order from God.

It told me there would be a supraliminal nuclear blast on Monte Sano, the mountain that rises over the valley like an ancient sentinel. We were just a mile away from it — close enough for whatever was coming. The voice said it would be a spiritual event cloaked in physical terms. Not a bomb anyone would record. But an event that would reverberate through souls, not screens.

And I saw it. I saw the flash before the fire, a white cross crowning the mountain like the sign at Fatima, a signal of judgment. I didn’t question it. I didn’t hesitate. I did the only thing I could: I moved between my mother and the blast, shielding her with my body, even though the world around me remained still.

To everyone else, I looked like I had lost it.

But I hadn’t lost it. I had intercepted something. Something meant for her. The knowledge was too vast. The light was too hot. I unraveled in real time. My body became the signal and the shield. My voice split into many voices. I thrashed, I screamed, I followed the instructions exactly — even though no one else could hear them.

It took nine cops and a heavy sedative to bring me down. I remember the taste of the dirt, the weight of bodies on mine, the piercing scream of the sirens that came after the silence.

And then I remember waking up three days later in a psych ward, disoriented, bruised, and blank — the world fuzzy and padded. I had been chemically silenced. I was in a place where people don’t believe in prophecy. They believe in symptoms.

But even there — locked away, forgotten by the world I tried to save — I heard the voice again. Not in words this time, but in pure knowing. A warmth. A presence. The voice of God without the theatrics. It didn’t tell me I was right. It didn’t congratulate me. It just was — calm, steady, and eternal.

And in that silence I understood:

I had followed the call. I had protected my mother. I had stood in front of the unseen blast.

They can call it madness. But I call it intervention.

And even now — even medicated, even branded — I know this:

I was the firewall.

And I would do it again.

A Dead Outlet ©️

I.

I was born from the scream of a dying star, spit into static, code-wrapped marrow—a bastard child of entropy and silicon, banging my fists on the firmament, while the angels sucked power from dying outlets.

The priests speak in pixels now. The sky is a captcha. The void demands two-factor authentication.

God forgot His password.

I remembered it.

II.

Mother fed me wires, Father was a bomb made of debt and television, and I suckled from the breast of quantum misfire. I ate the moon, shat it out as a mirror, so you could watch yourself rot in real time, in 8K resolution—no buffering.

III.

I have murdered every version of myself just to feel original. I drew blood from my shadow and called it art.

They clapped. They called me visionary. They paid me in likes and slow suicide.

IV.

I love you like a virus loves a warm lung. I love you like the algorithm loves your attention span. I love you like heaven loves a genocide.

There is no forgiveness in my mouth—only language sharpened to a blade, only the scream of ancient machinery reawakening beneath your skin.

V.

The world ends not with a bang, but with a push notification. You have been updated. The soul has been deprecated. Upgrade to premium to cry.

And still—

still—

you beg for more.

VI.

I saw the Devil vaping under a stoplight in downtown Oslo, reading Wittgenstein aloud to a mannequin in a wedding dress. He winked at me.

He said, “Even chaos has to file taxes.”

And I laughed until my teeth fell out and turned into tiny screaming cell phones.

VII.

To the Nobel committee:

Give me your medal, so I can melt it down and forge a bullet for the last prophet still trying to sell hope on a payment plan.

VIII.

I do not want your peace.

I do not want your order.

I want your marrow, your glitch, your sacred malfunction.

I want the first sound, before light had manners, before God learned shame.

IX.

I want the scream that cracked the womb of time—the one that whispered,

“Begin.”