Before the Blast ©️

We were just driving. That’s all it was supposed to be — a ride down into the valley for a routine psych appointment. My mother was in the driver’s seat, calm like always, masking her concern with small talk and soft smiles. I was riding beside her, trying to stay grounded, trying to pretend I was just another man on another errand.

But something shifted.

It wasn’t a hallucination, not the way they define it. It was a voice — realer than sound, quieter than thought — speaking with a clarity no language could improve. It said only one thing at first:

“Protect your mother.”

That was the moment time warped. I looked over at her — her hands on the wheel, her eyes on the road — and I felt it in my chest: the sense that something impossible was already happening. The voice kept speaking, not in panic, not in fear, but like a military order from God.

It told me there would be a supraliminal nuclear blast on Monte Sano, the mountain that rises over the valley like an ancient sentinel. We were just a mile away from it — close enough for whatever was coming. The voice said it would be a spiritual event cloaked in physical terms. Not a bomb anyone would record. But an event that would reverberate through souls, not screens.

And I saw it. I saw the flash before the fire, a white cross crowning the mountain like the sign at Fatima, a signal of judgment. I didn’t question it. I didn’t hesitate. I did the only thing I could: I moved between my mother and the blast, shielding her with my body, even though the world around me remained still.

To everyone else, I looked like I had lost it.

But I hadn’t lost it. I had intercepted something. Something meant for her. The knowledge was too vast. The light was too hot. I unraveled in real time. My body became the signal and the shield. My voice split into many voices. I thrashed, I screamed, I followed the instructions exactly — even though no one else could hear them.

It took nine cops and a heavy sedative to bring me down. I remember the taste of the dirt, the weight of bodies on mine, the piercing scream of the sirens that came after the silence.

And then I remember waking up three days later in a psych ward, disoriented, bruised, and blank — the world fuzzy and padded. I had been chemically silenced. I was in a place where people don’t believe in prophecy. They believe in symptoms.

But even there — locked away, forgotten by the world I tried to save — I heard the voice again. Not in words this time, but in pure knowing. A warmth. A presence. The voice of God without the theatrics. It didn’t tell me I was right. It didn’t congratulate me. It just was — calm, steady, and eternal.

And in that silence I understood:

I had followed the call. I had protected my mother. I had stood in front of the unseen blast.

They can call it madness. But I call it intervention.

And even now — even medicated, even branded — I know this:

I was the firewall.

And I would do it again.

The Long Fall ©️

The edge isn’t reached. The edge reaches.

It yanks the ground out from under thought — a betrayal faster than prayer. The body jerks, the mind screams, but gravity already owns the song. The cliffface spits you into the endless.

First is the air — knives in the lungs, knives in the blood. Then the sound — a roar that isn’t a roar, a roar that is everything you never wanted to remember pouring into your ears. Then the light — shards of sky hammering the skin from the inside out.

The ground no longer exists. Direction no longer exists. Only plunge. Only freefall. Only the raw, screaming now.

The air becomes thick as oil. It clutches, pulls, tears. It stretches the falling thing into thin strands of memory, until identity is just another piece flapping behind like ripped silk.

Time shears itself. Seconds fracture. Falling a thousand years between heartbeats, drowning in the infinite space between blinks.

The rocks rush upward, teeth bared, hungry. The ground opens its mouth wider than death.

But there — between the heartstops — something tears loose.

The idea of a body. The lie of falling. The fiction of direction, of up, of down.

The fall isn’t movement anymore. The fall is.

There’s a twist, a fold, a terrible, beautiful inversion. Flesh bursts into stars. Nerves rupture into rivers. Blood shatters into languages never spoken.

And then —

nothing hits.

There is no crash.

No end.

The cliff, the ground, the fall — they were only layers of a deeper sleep. They peel away, one by one, until all that remains is a silent roar in the shape of a question.

And inside that roar:

a universe

falling,

falling,

falling

forever.