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Neon Mercy ©️

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I didn’t think I was going to do it—not really. I’d thought about it, maybe once or twice, late at night when everything felt heavier and the world just seemed… mean. Like it had its hand around my neck and was just waiting to squeeze a little harder.

But today, everything caught up to me. Rent’s late again. My manager cut my hours. I asked my mom for help and she didn’t even call me back. And I just sat there on my bed, staring at the cracked screen of my phone, wondering what I even had left to offer. And then, like… I don’t know, like something outside of me whispered it, the thought came back.

“You could.”

I didn’t even say it out loud. Just sat there, heart thudding, fingers numb. I told myself I was just curious. I mean, girls do it, right? I’ve seen the posts. I’ve read the threads. It’s not like I’d be the first. Not even the hundredth.

So I googled it. I looked at some ads. I didn’t even mean to go that far, but I did. They weren’t like I imagined—some of them looked normal. Cute even. Just girls trying to make it, same as me. I kept thinking: What if it’s just once? Just to catch up. Just to feel okay for a minute.

I didn’t feel okay though. My stomach was all twisted. I kept refreshing the screen, like maybe the feeling would go away. It didn’t. I made a profile. Chose a name that didn’t feel real. I couldn’t use my real one. That would make it too… true.

I stared at the “Post” button for almost twenty minutes. I was shaking. I kept hearing my dad’s voice in my head, how he used to say, “You’re better than all this mess.” But he’s not around anymore, and I don’t know if I believe that.

When the first message came in, I almost dropped the phone. He was older. Said he was “respectful.” Wanted to meet for an hour. Just talk, maybe more. Said he’d pay well.

And I said yes. I don’t know why. My fingers typed it before I could stop them. Then it was real. The world didn’t spin or anything—it just went quiet, like a pause in a song where the next note never comes.

Now I’m sitting on the edge of my bed, in a dress I used to wear to dates, and I feel… hollow. Not scared, not yet. Just weird. Like I’m floating just outside myself. I keep telling myself it’s just my body. Just for one night. I’m still me. I’ll still be me after.

But then I wonder—what if I’m not? What if something changes and I can’t ever go back to who I was before this night?

I wish someone would call me and tell me not to go. But no one will. So I’m going.

And I hope… I hope I come back the same.

Not My Queen ©️

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We are no longer approaching a cultural collapse—we are in the middle of it. And almost no one is willing to say it.

A segment of the African American community, once defined by its strength under pressure and its relentless will to rise, has been overtaken by a new breed of institutionalized entitlement. This isn’t the dignity of civil rights marches. It’s not the craftsmanship of Black business owners building generational wealth against all odds. It’s not the art forged in pain, discipline, and vision. This is something else—a brittle, inflated culture of grievance, grown bloated on apologies, corporate appeasement, and media worship.

The narrative has shifted. Pain now demands deference. Critique is treated as violence. Standards are optional. Accountability is oppression. The loudest voices don’t speak for the community—they drown it. The quiet builders, the serious thinkers, the disciplined few—they’re either ignored or shouted down, replaced by influencers, bureaucrats, and opportunists who’ve learned to profit from a pain they no longer even feel.

Let’s be clear: real Black progress in America has been rare and hard-won. The gains are recent, the victories fragile. Civil rights were not ancient history. Economic footholds are still soft, educational gaps still deep. And yet the culture now seems determined to squander that progress. Every demand for unearned privilege, every institutional bending of the knee, every reflexive rejection of personal responsibility undermines the very ground that was fought for.

And the situation is already critical.

We’re not at the beginning of a cultural drift. We are well into the spiral.

Major cities are crumbling. Schools are failing. Crime is rising and excused. Respect for law, merit, and even basic conduct is collapsing—not because of racism, but because of the refusal to name this moment for what it is: a culture that has internalized fragility and externalized blame.

And here’s the hard truth: The chances of turning this around are small.

Why? Because the institutions that should correct course—media, education, politics—are afraid. Afraid of being called racist. Afraid of backlash. Afraid of losing funding, reputation, or comfort. So instead of leading, they enable.

Instead of elevating the strong, they amplify the manipulative.

Entitlement, once installed at scale, becomes nearly impossible to reverse. You cannot debate with it, because it calls dissent oppression. You cannot reform it, because it views every correction as an attack. And you cannot save those who believe their ruin is righteousness.

What comes next is not progress. It is collapse—of credibility, of respect, of any remaining cultural leverage.

If this continues, the years of slow, costly Black advancement will be buried under the weight of empty slogans and emotional extortion. The nation will move on. The culture that demanded everything will be left with nothing but what it refused to build: structure, resilience, value.