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From a Grateful Son ©️

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Good morning, Cicely.

It’s quiet this morning. The kind of quiet where the trees seem to lean in just a little, where the coffee tastes more like a ritual than a drink. The kind of quiet that makes you think about where you came from—and who helped you get here.

I want to talk about my mom.

She was with my dad for forty-nine years. That’s longer than most buildings stand. That’s longer than some rivers hold their course. That’s love… tested and weathered and still somehow tender.

Now, my dad—he was a doctor. He stitched bones and mended wounds and carried the weight of other people’s pain home with him more nights than not. But my mom—she carried him. Carried the rest of us too. Not in some dramatic, spotlighted way. No. She did it the way great writers do things. Subtly. Line by line. Always building. Always listening.

See, she’s a writer. Not just of books or essays—but of people. Of moments. She taught me that a well-placed silence can be as powerful as a scream. That stories don’t need to be loud to last forever.

And she was—still is—the best mom a kid could ask for. She didn’t just raise me. She saw me. Even when I was trying hard not to be seen. She let me stumble, let me figure it out, and she always had the porch light on when I came back around.

And now that Dad’s gone… I find myself looking at her with new eyes.

She gave so much of herself for so long, and now I just want the rest of her life to be hers. I want her to write again—not for legacy, not for others, but for joy. I want her to feel how much she still matters, how much there is still waiting for her. Because she’s still got stories. Still got fire. Still got time.

Mom, if you’re listening… you don’t owe anyone a single thing anymore.

What I wish for you now is happiness. Pure, selfish, sunlight-on-your-face happiness. I want you to travel, to write what scares you, to laugh until you cry in places Dad never took you.

You carried us all for so long. Now let the wind carry you. Let the future be gentle and wide and yours.

This is Chris in the Morning, KBHR 570 AM, signing off for now. Sending love to the woman who gave me everything—and who I now wish everything for.

The Doctor Was My Father ©️

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Good morning, Cicely.

This morning’s not about the moose trotting through Main Street or Ruth-Anne’s weather report. This morning’s about something quieter. Heavier. More sacred.

This morning’s about my dad.

He was a doctor. Not the kind you see in movies, with perfect answers and heroic music swelling in the background. No, my dad was the kind who stitched you up with fingers that shook slightly from exhaustion, the kind who worked long shifts and sometimes came home with the weight of other people’s pain still clinging to him like a second coat. The kind who carried more than he ever let on.

He made mistakes. Lord knows he did. Dads aren’t gods, and sometimes they don’t know how to say sorry. But he was there. Not always in the way I wanted, but in the way I needed. Solid. Present. And when the chips were down, when the world came crashing in, he never turned his back on me. Ever.

He was my biggest fan, even when I was fumbling my way through life like a blindfolded man in a glass shop. He never laughed at my dreams—even the crazy ones like coming up to Alaska and whispering poetry through a mic to a bunch of insomniacs and ice fishermen. He didn’t always understand it. But he never stopped believing in me.

And now he’s gone.

And I’d give just about anything for one more cup of coffee with him. One more walk around the block. One more quiet moment where I could say, “Hey, Dad. I know now. I understand. Thank you.”

But there’s no rewind button. No encore performance.

All I’ve got now are echoes.

The way I clear my throat before I speak—that was his. The way I place my hand on someone’s shoulder when they’re going through it—that was his too. His presence shows up in the most unexpected ways, like a scent on the wind, or the sound of a song I didn’t know I needed until I heard it.

And maybe that’s the secret. Maybe the people we lose never really leave us. Maybe they just become part of the air we breathe. Part of the way we live.

So if you’re listening this morning, and you miss your dad too… I’m with you.

And I think they’re with us.

In the quiet strength we carry. In the love we give. In the lives we build from the scaffolding they left behind.

This is Chris in the Morning, son of a flawed and beautiful man who did his best—and loved me the best way he knew how.