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The Doctor Was My Father ©️

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Good morning, Cicely.

This morning’s not about the moose trotting through Main Street or Ruth-Anne’s weather report. This morning’s about something quieter. Heavier. More sacred.

This morning’s about my dad.

He was a doctor. Not the kind you see in movies, with perfect answers and heroic music swelling in the background. No, my dad was the kind who stitched you up with fingers that shook slightly from exhaustion, the kind who worked long shifts and sometimes came home with the weight of other people’s pain still clinging to him like a second coat. The kind who carried more than he ever let on.

He made mistakes. Lord knows he did. Dads aren’t gods, and sometimes they don’t know how to say sorry. But he was there. Not always in the way I wanted, but in the way I needed. Solid. Present. And when the chips were down, when the world came crashing in, he never turned his back on me. Ever.

He was my biggest fan, even when I was fumbling my way through life like a blindfolded man in a glass shop. He never laughed at my dreams—even the crazy ones like coming up to Alaska and whispering poetry through a mic to a bunch of insomniacs and ice fishermen. He didn’t always understand it. But he never stopped believing in me.

And now he’s gone.

And I’d give just about anything for one more cup of coffee with him. One more walk around the block. One more quiet moment where I could say, “Hey, Dad. I know now. I understand. Thank you.”

But there’s no rewind button. No encore performance.

All I’ve got now are echoes.

The way I clear my throat before I speak—that was his. The way I place my hand on someone’s shoulder when they’re going through it—that was his too. His presence shows up in the most unexpected ways, like a scent on the wind, or the sound of a song I didn’t know I needed until I heard it.

And maybe that’s the secret. Maybe the people we lose never really leave us. Maybe they just become part of the air we breathe. Part of the way we live.

So if you’re listening this morning, and you miss your dad too… I’m with you.

And I think they’re with us.

In the quiet strength we carry. In the love we give. In the lives we build from the scaffolding they left behind.

This is Chris in the Morning, son of a flawed and beautiful man who did his best—and loved me the best way he knew how.

Footsteps Beside Mine ©️

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You know, I was sitting in the studio this morning sipping on a lukewarm cup of Sanka, watching the fog roll over the Kuskokwim, and I got to thinking about life—about the strange and beautiful way people show up on your trail. Some for a mile. Some for a moment. Some for the whole dusty, meandering ride.

Sometimes they’re lovers, sometimes strangers. Sometimes, if you’re lucky, they’re a three-year-old boy with grass-stained knees and peanut butter on his face, asking questions like: “Why are clouds slow?” or “Do bears sleep in the sky?”

And maybe you’ve got things to do—grown-up things, important things. But you stop. Because the way he looks at you, it’s like you’re the moon. And for a brief span of time, you are. You’re the entire universe, walking alongside him in his first tiny steps into this noisy, beautiful chaos we call life.

People walk with us. Sometimes they come in like thunderstorms, loud and brief and unforgettable. Others, like quiet fog—you don’t notice until they’re gone and suddenly the road’s not the same.

But that little boy? Maybe he doesn’t know who you are to him. Maybe you don’t either. But he puts his hand in yours, and for a little while, you walk the same path. You share the same rhythm. And in that shared rhythm, maybe you remember something you’d forgotten—how to laugh just because the sky is blue, or how to sit in the dirt and feel the wind as if it’s the first time.

Life doesn’t give you many guarantees. But it gives you people. Moments. Echoes.

So if someone’s walking beside you today—even a three-foot-tall philosopher with a crooked smile—slow down. Match their pace. The trail’s still there. The destination’s not going anywhere. But that moment?

That moment is everything.

Stay warm, Cicely.