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When you die, you expect nothing.

Or maybe you expect something soft—light, warmth, the cliché of an open gate. What you do not expect is to feel the weightless, perfect drift toward the stars. It is not a vision. It is direction. The current carries you upward into a black strewn with fire, and you know—without words—that this is the way home.

Then it happens.

It’s not an attack. It’s not even sudden. It’s a pressure from every side, like invisible hands kneading the air around you until you can’t move. The current falters. The light ahead flickers. And then you see it—a shadow deeper than space itself, a blot in the distance that swells and swells until it is everything.

You are inside it before you understand what it is.

No walls. No ceiling. No floor. Just an infinite interior of nothing that breathes. And there, suspended around you, are the others—hundreds, thousands, maybe millions—strung in midair like strands of glowing sinew. Their faces—if they had faces—are locked in shapes you wish you hadn’t recognized: pleading, straining, wide-eyed in the last instant before they were emptied.

The first pull is almost gentle.

Then it deepens.

It drags through you like a hand groping in your skull, curling around something you didn’t know you had until it was gripped. You feel it being pulled out—pure you, stripped raw, leaving only the ache behind. It slides away in ribbons, glowing for an instant before vanishing into the dark lattice above.

That’s when you hear it.

The hum.

It’s low, constant, inhuman. But as it builds, you start to recognize shapes in the sound—moans, shouts, screams, all blended together into one eternal note. It’s the engine. It’s the ship. It’s what they’ve made you into. Every stolen soul is another wire in its body, another voice in its dirge.

You don’t see the things that own this place, but you feel them everywhere, like the presence of a predator in a pitch-black room. They are older than the galaxies, older than the laws that govern them. And they do not hate you. They don’t even know you exist. You are not a prisoner here—you are consumable.

Time collapses. You cannot measure it. Your memories thin until they are more sensation than fact. You forget how your own voice sounded. You forget the color of the sky you were born under. You forget that there was ever anywhere else to be. The cold works its way inward, past the marrow of whatever you’ve become, until you no longer remember what warmth means.

And the most terrifying part?

You realize you are helping.

Every flicker of thought, every memory bleeding away, is one more spark driving the machine forward. You are making it move. You are part of it now, and the ship has no destination.

It will travel forever.

It will feed forever.

And long after the last star dies, long after the universe itself cools into nothing, you will still be here—emptied, forgotten, humming in the dark, helping something you cannot see cross a void that never ends.

You will never arrive.

You will never stop.

And you will never be free.

Cold Calculus ©️

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In the shadow of war, there comes a moment when the world waits—waits for reason to return, for the guns to fall silent, for a hand to extend across the table. That moment has not come. And in the brutal rhythm of 2025, it seems clear that Vladimir Putin has no intention of letting it arrive.

Since the invasion began in February 2022, Russia’s campaign against Ukraine has morphed from a blitzkrieg-style assault to a drawn-out war of attrition. But in the past year, a grim escalation has taken hold. The air raids are more frequent. The missiles strike deeper. The drones arrive at night and do not stop. Civilian centers—Kharkiv, Kyiv, Mykolaiv—have been battered by waves of violence not seen since the early months of the war. Infrastructure has become the target. Power stations, water plants, bridges, hospitals. The goal is clear: to wear down the spine of Ukraine, not just its soldiers, but its people, its systems, its very sense of stability.

This is not the chaotic desperation of a crumbling empire. It is something colder. More methodical. Putin is not flailing—he is calculating. The strikes are surgical in their cruelty. They coincide with planting seasons, with winter freezes, with diplomatic summits abroad. The message is simple and ruthless: This war will end when I say it ends.

And that end, by all accounts, is nowhere in sight.

The peace table—so often a fixture of modern wars—remains gathering dust. There is no legitimate channel. No corridor of trust. Every attempt by European mediators or UN envoys has been met with silence or subterfuge. Putin will talk, but only in the language of ultimatums. Ukraine must cede territory. The West must back down. The sanctions must lift. In essence, he demands victory before negotiation.

This is not negotiation. This is conquest dressed in diplomatic theater.

Ukraine, meanwhile, remains defiant—but exhausted. Its people have shown historic resilience. Its soldiers have pushed back where others might collapse. But it is fighting an enemy with deep reserves and deeper indifference to human suffering. Putin does not need public approval. He does not worry about elections or dissent. His war machine runs on loyalty, fear, and a mythic vision of empire. Time, he believes, is on his side.

And perhaps it is.

Western support, though formidable, flickers with uncertainty. Funding debates in the U.S. Congress. Fatigue in European parliaments. The longer the war stretches on, the more Putin bets on democracy’s attention span running out. His refusal to negotiate is not just about territory—it is about patience. He believes he can outlast Ukraine and outwait the West.

It is not a strategy of peace. It is a strategy of erosion.

And so the war continues. Not because both sides are too proud, but because one man has decided that peace would be defeat. And in his world, defeat is impossible.

As bombs fall and cities burn, it becomes ever clearer: this is not just a war over land. It is a war over time. Over will. Over the very idea that peace is something that can be made—rather than taken.

Until that changes, Ukraine will bleed. And the world will watch, wondering how long it can afford to care.

The Loony Bin ©️

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Rise in the hour where shadows grow thin, Where the light stumbles drunken, unsteady with sin, And the breath of the house, thick with its ghosts, Swirls in the lungs of the living, its hosts.

The doors groan awake, their hinges alive, Each creak a confession, each whisper contrived. The floors swell and buckle, drunk on despair, Carrying feet that move nowhere, nowhere.

At the long gray table, a carnival of dread, Where laughter shivers, where hunger is fed. Plates hold their secrets, mute and profound, Forks strike their rhythm, but never a sound.

The gardens outside—if gardens they are—Are fenced with the ribcage of some dying star. The trees are frozen in screams of green, While the wind gnaws the air, rabid and keen.

In the midmorning haze, they march us to prayer, Kneeling in pews that don’t take our weight, And the hymn of the broken, with voices undone, Rises to rafters that swallow the sun.

Afternoon sways in its lunatic tide, With a shuffle of hands and dreams misapplied. Paintbrushes falter on canvases torn, Where visions are birthed, but stillborn, stillborn.

Then comes the night, the hallowed despair, Where pills are handed like sacrament there. One for the silence, one for the screams, One to deny the betrayal of dreams.

The walls hum their madness, their cobwebbed tune, While the moon hangs limp like a punctured balloon. And the voices—oh, the voices—they rise, they fall, A choir of sorrow echoing all.

Sleep is a rumor, a gambler’s deceit, A shadowy promise that falters, retreats. The bed becomes prison, the pillow a stone, And you lie there unburied, yet utterly alone.

And so, the wheel turns, the cycle restarts, A parade of the damned with clockwork hearts. But the house breathes on, devouring the years, Feeding its belly with whispers and tears.

Oh, to tear through the dawn like a thief in the sun, To break this mad orbit, to end what’s begun, But the house is a labyrinth, a trap sprung deep, And its strange routine is the price of sleep.

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In a desolate town ruled by fear and lawlessness, there lived a man named Gabriel. He was a man of principle, known for his unwavering sense of justice. Gabriel had spent his life defending the helpless, a beacon of light in a place consumed by darkness. But his righteousness made him enemies, particularly with a brutal gang known as The Crimson Circle, a collective of ruthless killers who thrived on chaos and bloodshed.

Gabriel’s confrontation with The Crimson Circle was inevitable. The gang, led by a vicious leader named Jericho, had grown tired of Gabriel’s interference in their affairs. They saw him as a threat to their dominion, a man who needed to be extinguished to ensure their reign of terror remained unchallenged.

One stormy night, The Crimson Circle struck. They captured Gabriel and, without mercy, murdered him in cold blood, leaving his body in a burning church as a symbol to the rest of the town: no one defies The Crimson Circle and lives.

The town mourned Gabriel’s death, but fear kept them silent. The flames of the church flickered out, and with them, hope seemed to fade from the hearts of the people. But something lingered in the ashes—something that refused to die.

Gabriel’s spirit, fueled by the injustice of his murder and the cries of the innocent, could not rest. From the smoldering ruins of the church, he rose again, his body a vessel of vengeance, animated by a force beyond the grave. His eyes burned with an unholy fire, and his once gentle hands now clenched into fists of rage. Gabriel had become a revenant, an avenger, driven by a singular purpose: to annihilate those who had wronged him and free the town from the grip of The Crimson Circle.

As word of Gabriel’s resurrection spread, the people of the town were both terrified and awestruck. They whispered of a ghost, a vengeful spirit who could not be killed, stalking the shadows with death in his wake. The Crimson Circle, however, dismissed these rumors as nothing more than the fearful fantasies of weak minds.

But soon, they could not ignore the truth. One by one, the members of The Crimson Circle began to fall. Gabriel moved through the town like a specter, striking with lethal precision. He was no longer bound by the limitations of the living; he could appear and disappear at will, his presence heralded by the scent of smoke and the flicker of flames. Each death was a message, a reminder that justice, though delayed, could not be denied.

Jericho, the leader of The Crimson Circle, grew increasingly paranoid as his men were hunted down. He fortified his stronghold, surrounding himself with his most trusted killers, but it was no use. Gabriel was unstoppable, driven by a force that no wall or weapon could deter.

The final confrontation came in the heart of The Crimson Circle’s lair, an abandoned factory that had once been the lifeblood of the town. Now, it was a place of decay and despair, much like the gang that inhabited it. Gabriel walked through the corridors, unflinching, as Jericho’s men fell before him, their weapons useless against the wrath of the revenant.

When Gabriel finally faced Jericho, the air was thick with tension. Jericho, once a man who feared nothing, trembled before the specter of the man he had murdered. Gabriel’s eyes, once filled with the warmth of life, now burned with the cold fire of vengeance.

“You thought you could kill me,” Gabriel’s voice echoed, reverberating with a power that shook Jericho to his core. “But you cannot kill justice. You cannot kill what is already dead.”

Jericho, desperate, lunged at Gabriel with a knife, but it was futile. Gabriel caught Jericho’s arm with a grip like iron and twisted it, the sound of bones snapping filling the room. With a final, searing gaze, Gabriel whispered, “This is for all those who suffered under your reign.”

In one swift motion, Gabriel ended Jericho’s life, the leader of The Crimson Circle crumbling to the ground, his body lifeless. The factory, like the gang that had inhabited it, was consumed by fire—Gabriel’s final act of purification.

As the flames rose, the town watched in silence, knowing that their tormentors were no more. Gabriel, his vengeance fulfilled, walked into the heart of the inferno. His body was consumed by the flames, but his spirit, at peace at last, ascended beyond the world of the living.

The story of Gabriel, the Revenant of Fire, became a legend in the town. It was said that on the darkest nights, when the wind howled through the mountains and the moon hid behind clouds, you could still see the flicker of flames where the old church once stood—a reminder that justice, though it may be delayed, will always rise again to claim what is rightfully its own.