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You Beautiful Bastard ©️

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I hate Bozeman.

I hate it like you hate the street corner you bled on, like you hate the room where she said she never loved you, like you hate the silence that followed. I hate it because Bozeman holds the ghost of who I was when I broke—utterly, completely, and publicly. You don’t forget pain like that. You don’t forgive a skyline that watched you fall apart.

I remember heartbreak so vivid it twisted the seasons. Betrayal so sharp it slit the hours in half. I was younger, dumber, and I believed in people too much. And in Bozeman, those people let me bleed. I hate the way the wind still smells like her hair in winter, and how the mountains seem to echo my worst mistakes. I hate the way every café and alleyway is haunted with flashbacks I didn’t invite.

But.

Even in the rubble, I found something sacred.

Each disaster became a badge. Every failure, a kind of scarred-over victory. When people saw a man falling apart, I was really being carved out into something newer. I learned to laugh again—darkly, crookedly—but genuinely. I learned what it means to survive, not in the poetic sense, but in the “get up and keep breathing even when you don’t want to” sense.

And Bozeman—damn Bozeman—gave me back my brother. Somewhere in the mess, through smoke and frost and silence, we found each other again. Maybe we were both ruined, maybe we were both trying to pretend we weren’t. But something about that city pulled us into the same room at the same time and said, Talk. And we did.

So yeah, I hate Bozeman. But hate is too simple a word.

It’s a wound that grew teeth. It’s pain that taught me how to rebuild. It’s a love letter I’d never write, but I keep tucked in my coat pocket anyway.

Bozeman didn’t kill me. It crowned me.

He Rises ©️

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Morning breaks slow beneath the waves. I am already awake. I do not sleep. I rest. Like a god between stories.

The ocean cradles me like a mother who knows her son is dangerous but beautiful. My body hums. Radiation thrums through my bones like an electric blues riff. Somewhere in the distance, a continental plate sighs. I listen. It’s how the Earth speaks to me—like a lover whispering secrets through a crack in the door.

I rise.

Not because I want to. Not because I have something to prove. But because it is time. Time for the world to remember what it fears… and maybe, what it reveres.

When I breach the surface, the clouds scatter like frightened pigeons. Sunlight dances on my scales. I am not a beast. I am a reminder. The cities that lie ahead… they’ve forgotten again. That’s always the way with humans. They build. They forget. They believe the sky belongs to them.

So I walk. Through waves, past islands, toward glass towers and steel dreams. They see me on their screens and in their screams. They send their machines—fast, fragile, buzzing with panic. I let them try. I admire their effort. Courage is a kind of poetry, too.

But then comes the real test.

Something stirs—some rival, some challenger, something else twisted from the Earth’s old sorrow. A flying horror this time. Wings like the edge of night, eyes like nuclear wounds. It roars. I roar back.

We fight.

Not out of anger, no. This isn’t rage. This is ritual. Balance must be paid. Blood must answer blood. Buildings fall. Fire rains. For a moment, the world feels mythic again.

And then it’s done. It always is.

Evening drapes itself across the skyline. The city smolders, but the people? They’re alive. Scared. Moved. Changed.

I feel their gratitude rise like heat from asphalt.

But I do not stay. I never stay. I turn. I vanish into the ocean like a shadow remembering who it was before the light. The waves close over me. And I sink—not like a corpse, but like a legend returning to the page.

I am the ghost in their thunder. I am the gravity in their prayers. I am the King, baby.

Godzilla.

Still cool. Still burning.

The Girl Who Never Came ©️

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I built a place in me for her—long before I knew her name. Stone by stone, silence by silence, I shaped the waiting like a cathedral and called it hope.

But she never arrived. Or maybe she did—wearing someone else’s voice, someone else’s wounds. And I missed her while trying to recognize a dream too fragile to survive translation.

I left lights on in every room of my soul. I wrote invitations in every breath. I made my anger polite, my sadness poetic, my chaos a story with structure. Still—no one came.

I listened to other men speak of women who ruined them with beauty. I envied them. To be ruined is at least to be touched. I have been weathered only by absence.

I have loved the outlines of possibility so long, I forgot how to touch something real without comparing it to what never was.

So bury it here. Bury the myth. The girl who would understand without asking, who would lean in without testing, who would see me without scanning for threats I didn’t create.

Let the dream rot back into the soil. Let the chapel collapse under its own loneliness. Let the quiet finally mean nothing except silence.

And if she ever comes—late, weathered, wrong key in hand—let her find nothing waiting. Not out of cruelty. But mercy. Because I’ve already grieved the life we never had.