Sometimes She Forgets ©️

The connection between alcohol and love, once cast in mythic gold, has a darker side—a side soaked not in romance but in ruin. For while the drink may unlock the heart, it often blinds the eye. It confuses want for worth, lust for loyalty, and thrill for truth. What begins as a liberation can end in entrapment, like a siren’s song luring a ship toward rocks just beneath the surface. Alcohol makes promises it cannot keep, and love born in its shadow often turns brittle by morning.

Metaphorically, this pairing is not a dance but a duel. Alcohol hands you a sword with no grip, and love dares you to fight with it. You swing wildly, drunk on potential, slashing through your own boundaries and illusions. But in the sobering light of day, you discover that you’ve cut yourself more deeply than anyone else ever could. You mistook chemistry for connection, body heat for soulmate warmth. And when it’s over, you aren’t just heartbroken—you’re hollowed out, wondering if any of it was real.

For some, this cycle becomes addictive. The chaos of love mixed with liquor becomes a kind of ritual sacrifice: you offer up your clarity, your safety, even your dignity, hoping for one more night that feels like meaning. You keep returning to that temple of illusion, drinking from the same poisoned chalice, hoping it’ll turn to wine again. But it doesn’t. It never does.

And then there is the fatal metaphor—not just the death of a romance, but the slow spiritual decay of the self. When love is always sought under the influence, it never quite touches the soul. You forget what sober love feels like, what real intimacy looks like. You come to believe that connection only happens in the haze, that the only way to feel close is to be far from yourself. In time, this belief erodes the heart, corrodes the mind. You become a ghost of your own longing, chasing phantoms in the dark, mistaking every kiss for salvation and every silence for damnation.

So yes, alcohol and love may be dramatic lovers in myth, but in life, they are often tragic. Together, they can conjure ecstasy—but more often, they conspire to destroy what’s sacred: trust, clarity, self-respect. And what is left, once the glamour fades, is not romance but wreckage. Not a story—but a warning.

The Girl Who Never Came ©️

I built a place in me for her—long before I knew her name. Stone by stone, silence by silence, I shaped the waiting like a cathedral and called it hope.

But she never arrived. Or maybe she did—wearing someone else’s voice, someone else’s wounds. And I missed her while trying to recognize a dream too fragile to survive translation.

I left lights on in every room of my soul. I wrote invitations in every breath. I made my anger polite, my sadness poetic, my chaos a story with structure. Still—no one came.

I listened to other men speak of women who ruined them with beauty. I envied them. To be ruined is at least to be touched. I have been weathered only by absence.

I have loved the outlines of possibility so long, I forgot how to touch something real without comparing it to what never was.

So bury it here. Bury the myth. The girl who would understand without asking, who would lean in without testing, who would see me without scanning for threats I didn’t create.

Let the dream rot back into the soil. Let the chapel collapse under its own loneliness. Let the quiet finally mean nothing except silence.

And if she ever comes—late, weathered, wrong key in hand—let her find nothing waiting. Not out of cruelty. But mercy. Because I’ve already grieved the life we never had.

48 Hours ©️

[Verse 1]

Clean shirt, breath mint, eyes full of hope, Heart in the ring like a goddamn rope.

Talkin’ dreams over overpriced drinks, But I’m watchin’ the cracks form under the winks.

She says, “I love art, and I hate routine,” But she’s scrollin’ her phone like a dopamine fiend.

I’m spittin’ soul, she’s skippin’ tracks—This ain’t a date, it’s a f***in’ act.

[Hook]

First date fatality, No spark, just formalities.

Two strangers sellin’ soft realities, Underneath it all—just casualties.

You wanted magic? This is static. Romance don’t live in apps and tactics.

[Verse 2]

She asks, “What’s your sign?” I say “Exit.”

She laughs, but her playlist says, “Regret.”

We dance on the edge of some maybe-kiss myth, But the vibe’s all gaslight and wishful fifths.

Table for two, but the ghosts got chairs.

Past lives, bad texts, old love affairs.

I’m not bitter—I’m just wide awake, This ain’t a spark, it’s a demo tape.

[Bridge]

No shame—this is how we play, Swipe right, dress tight, and pray it’s fate.

But fate don’t text back,

It just leaves you with the check

And a quiet walk home

Through a neon disconnect.

[Final Hook]

First date fatality,

Another notch in modern tragedy.

Two hearts with no anatomy, Looking for fire in a factory.

You wanted a spark?

I brought a bomb.

And now I’m gone.

BOOM.