He big. He got boots that make loud sounds and he say my name like a song but also like a truck. He smell like outside and hot sauce and hugs. I don’t know all the words he say, but I like the way he say ‘em. He say, “You got a strong back, boy. Gonna be tough like your daddy, maybe tougher.” I don’t know what that mean, but I laugh and he laugh too, and then we go outside and I hold a stick like him. He talks like a cowboy but not the scary kind. He talks like he knows the sky and the dirt and why dogs bark.
He call me “little man” and tell me “you ain’t gotta cry for nothin’ that don’t bleed.” Mama say “Don’t tell him that!” but I think it sound brave. He pick me up high and I see everything—trees, sun, his truck. He let me sit on his lap when he drive slow down the field, and he say, “Don’t tell your mama,” but I do anyway and she say “Lord help me.” I like when he come ‘cause he makes the house full. Full of words and stories and smiles that feel like firecrackers inside me.
Sometimes I don’t know what he means but it don’t matter ‘cause I know he loves me big. Bigger than his voice. Bigger than his truck. Maybe bigger than the whole world.
