This Isn’t a Police State ©️

It was always dusk in the city, or maybe the sun had simply stopped bothering to rise—no one quite remembered. Time here didn’t tick so much as hum, low and wet, like the sound of an old refrigerator rotting in a ruined motel. The streetlights never went off. The shadows never left. You had to squint to see people’s faces, even when they were right in front of you. That’s how they liked it.

He woke up in a steel-walled unit designed for optimal docility. They used to call them apartments, once upon a time, when doors had hinges and windows opened. Now there was just the hiss of hydraulic locks, the blinking red light in the ceiling’s eye socket, and the pale, flickering glow of the propaganda mural bleeding across the wall—children holding flags, static creeping through their smiles.

The boy—no name, never one of those—brushed his teeth with a powder made from algae and bone ash. Tasted like death and salt. He didn’t mind. There were worse things. His father had once told him about fruit. Apples. He’d described them like dreams: red, crisp, alive. He died a week later in a “utility misalignment.” That’s how the morning bulletin phrased it.

Outside, the city breathed like an iron lung. Cars without drivers hissed down neon canals of tar. Patrolmen, faceless in mirror helmets, paced like wind-up toys with stun batons in their hands and prayers in their throats. The boy kept his head low and moved fast. Everyone walked like they were trying not to be seen by ghosts.

His job was at the Archive—a windowless, soundless tower in Sector Nine. Inside, he cleaned memory reels. Actual tape, glossy with the sweat of old history. The Archivists wore gloves and masks and never spoke above a whisper. They said the past was infectious.

He worked in silence, breathing through cloth, fingers trembling as he slid a reel into the incinerator—“JUNE 1984: UNAUTHORIZED ROMANTICISM.” He didn’t cry. He hadn’t cried since the last curfew riot, when they shot the air so full of sound it tore the sky open like tissue paper. He’d watched a girl fall in half. Her name was—no, not safe to remember.

At 3:07 PM, the fire alarms blared for precisely nine seconds. A test, they said. But he noticed the Archivist across from him flinch wrong—like he hadn’t known it was coming. That’s how you knew someone was about to disappear. The sound of not knowing.

After shift, he didn’t go home. Not yet. He walked the old line—where the subway used to run before it flooded with blood or data or both. Down there, things echoed differently. Rats with cyber-spines scurried past, their red eyes blinking Morse. And in a corner only he knew, behind a sheet of scrap metal, was a projector. Ancient. Illegal. Precious.

He powered it with a stolen battery from a city clock. It whirred like a dying animal, coughing light onto the crumbling wall. The film was broken, half-erased, but the faces that flickered across the cement were real. Laughing women. Men dancing with cigarettes. Kids running down streets with no sirens, no patrols. People living like they weren’t being watched.

He watched until the reel snapped. Watched until the ghosts went quiet.

Then he stood. And for just a second, in the dark, he whispered his name. Just once.

Not loud. Just enough to remember he still had one.

Outside, the city screamed again. Sirens this time.

They were coming.

And still—he did not run.

Exit Left ©

They thought I was still there. Still orbiting the petty suns they’d lit for themselves. Still answering to invisible chains disguised as procedure. Still carrying the weight they refused to name. But I had already withdrawn my gravity. I had already let them drift.

It wasn’t sudden. Collapse rarely is. It happens in layers — in moments where the air goes still, where the light above the cubicle flickers not from electricity but from indifference. They whispered accusations, coded and quiet, meant to trap me in reaction. But I’d stopped responding to bait. When you’ve tasted what silence can do, you don’t raise your voice anymore — you vanish deeper into the still.

I saw the cracks in their machine long ago. Not just incompetence. Entropy. The kind that seeps into the gears of every synthetic hierarchy. It wasn’t corruption that bothered me — it was the mediocrity that wore it like perfume. Rot masked as policy. Weakness dressed in authority. And when they tried to pin their failures to me, it didn’t even sting. Because they couldn’t reach me. I was already gone.

I didn’t argue. I timestamped the truth. Buried it like a seed. Someone might dig it up later. Or not. That’s not my concern anymore.

Because I don’t wage war in dead systems. I don’t shout in halls built to muffle. I don’t set fires where there’s no oxygen left to burn.

I simply leave — and take the atmosphere with me.

And I watched them float — confused, weightless, still pretending their gravity was real.