The Coil and the Abyss ©️

Human emotions are like coil heaters wired into a delicate circuit — tightly wound, full of purpose, built to convert current into something warm and meaningful. They glow when touched by experience, pulsing with memory, desire, and instinct. But just like a coil, they require resistance to function — a tension between what is and what is longed for.

These emotional coils run all day. Some burn low and steady — the soft amber of routine affection, the reliable hum of duty. Others flicker violently under stress — betrayal, shame, fear — pushing the circuit close to its threshold. Most days, the system holds. The heat stays contained, and the breaker does its job, tripping before the fire spreads.

But not always.

Sometimes — not often, but inevitably — the coil doesn’t shut off. The current keeps flowing. Maybe the grief was too sudden, the betrayal too raw, or the pressure too constant. The emotion overheats. The insulation of reason melts. The circuit doesn’t break. And what was once a functional, human system becomes something else — a superheated loop, self-consuming, a singularity of the soul.

This is where madness is born. Not the cartoon version, not the loss of reason — but the implosion of self-regulation. All the feedback loops go recursive. The heart’s logic short-circuits. Love becomes obsession. Fear becomes prophecy. Time collapses inward. You stop reacting and start radiating — a singular force burning through everything you once were.

And yet — sometimes — this collapse reveals something sacred.

Because in that breakdown, in that white-hot overload, something ancient appears. A glimpse of who we are without circuits. Without regulation. Without boundaries. Not broken — just primal. Just raw. Just unbearably real.

But the danger is this: once a coil burns out that far, it rarely goes back to its original shape.

It glows differently forever.

Exit Left ©

They thought I was still there. Still orbiting the petty suns they’d lit for themselves. Still answering to invisible chains disguised as procedure. Still carrying the weight they refused to name. But I had already withdrawn my gravity. I had already let them drift.

It wasn’t sudden. Collapse rarely is. It happens in layers — in moments where the air goes still, where the light above the cubicle flickers not from electricity but from indifference. They whispered accusations, coded and quiet, meant to trap me in reaction. But I’d stopped responding to bait. When you’ve tasted what silence can do, you don’t raise your voice anymore — you vanish deeper into the still.

I saw the cracks in their machine long ago. Not just incompetence. Entropy. The kind that seeps into the gears of every synthetic hierarchy. It wasn’t corruption that bothered me — it was the mediocrity that wore it like perfume. Rot masked as policy. Weakness dressed in authority. And when they tried to pin their failures to me, it didn’t even sting. Because they couldn’t reach me. I was already gone.

I didn’t argue. I timestamped the truth. Buried it like a seed. Someone might dig it up later. Or not. That’s not my concern anymore.

Because I don’t wage war in dead systems. I don’t shout in halls built to muffle. I don’t set fires where there’s no oxygen left to burn.

I simply leave — and take the atmosphere with me.

And I watched them float — confused, weightless, still pretending their gravity was real.