Follow Me, Peter ©

The Church was never meant to be trendy. It was never meant to mirror the world, to follow fashion, or to appease the sensibilities of each passing age. The Church was — and must be again — the last immovable object in a world of motion. With the election of a progressive to the papacy, I say plainly, I do not and will not accept this direction. Not because of politics, not out of spite, but because truth does not evolve by committee. The foundation laid by Christ is not up for revision. And if Rome forgets that, then I must remember it for them. If the bishops won’t lead, the laity must rise. I will lead the cause.

The time has come to re-imagine Catholicism not by diluting it but by distilling it. We need a Church that is harder, not softer. One that demands, not suggests. One that speaks in absolutes again — in the language of fire and mystery and blood. The Church must become what it once was: dangerous to tyrants, terrifying to the wicked, and beautiful enough to break the heart of a sinner into a thousand pieces of repentance. We must rediscover that the Mass is not a community gathering — it is the reenactment of the Sacrifice of Calvary. We must tear out the guitars, the PowerPoint slides, the soft sermons that say everything and mean nothing. We must recover awe. And if that means beginning in barns and basements, so be it.

I will focus not on rebuilding the Church in its existing structure, but on constructing the remnant. That faithful, burning core who have not bowed to the idols of this world — who still kneel, still fast, still believe in demons and in angels. We will not concern ourselves with PR or popularity. The task is not to win the world — it is to hold the line until the world collapses and comes searching for the Truth again. I will initiate three core actions: the restoration of traditional liturgy, the rearming of the faithful with doctrine, and the cultivation of spiritual resilience through suffering and silence. I will build networks of prayer and intelligence. I will form cells, not parishes — battalions of the heart, armed not with slogans but with Latin, Scripture, incense, and conviction.

The Church does not need to be saved by Rome. It never has. Peter’s chair is important, but Peter’s fire is greater. I will fan that fire wherever it still burns. And if they call this schism, let them. If they excommunicate, so be it. If they strike the shepherd, the sheep will scatter — but the wolves should not forget what scattered sheep can become when they remember their Shepherd is a Lion.

This is not rebellion. This is reclamation. The Church is not theirs to modernize. It is ours to fight for. The Bride of Christ will not be dressed in rainbow flags. She will be dressed in red — the blood of the martyrs, the vestments of priests, the flame of Pentecost. That is the vision. And I do not ask permission. I do not wait for approval. I only ask who among you will stand. Because I am already standing.

The Kiss was Real ©️

I woke before the sun. The world hadn’t started yet. It was quiet, too quiet—the kind of quiet that feels like the earth is holding its breath. I sat up, bones aching, throat dry, and for a moment I forgot what I’d done. Just for a moment. But memory has sharp teeth, and it bit down fast.

The silver was still in the pouch. I hadn’t touched it. Couldn’t. It sat in the corner like a live thing—shiny and smug. I hated it. I hated myself more. Not for the act, not for the kiss. For the belief. I actually thought I was helping Him. I thought, if I pressed the world hard enough, He’d rise. Call down fire. Split the sky. Prove everyone wrong and usher in the Kingdom with blood and thunder.

But He didn’t.

He surrendered.

I wandered through the market, people brushing past me like I was already a ghost. I wanted someone to look me in the eye and ask what I’d done. I wanted someone to hit me, curse me, tell me it could still be undone. No one did. That silence screamed louder than the crowd ever would.

By midday, I heard the chants echoing off the stone. “Crucify Him!”

I couldn’t breathe. My knees buckled.

This wasn’t how it was supposed to go. I didn’t sell Him to be killed. I sold Him to be revealed. He was the Messiah. The fire. The storm. I gave Him the stage, and He walked to it in chains.

I went to the priests. Threw the silver back at them.

“I have sinned,” I told them.

They wouldn’t meet my eyes. Just looked bored. Indifferent.

“What is that to us?” they said.

That was when I knew—none of them understood what I’d done. Not even Him, maybe. Not even God.

I ran.

The sun was sinking when I found the tree. A twisted old thing on the edge of the field, crooked like my spine, gnarled like my soul. I stared at it for a long time. Not thinking. Just… knowing.

I didn’t cry. I didn’t pray.

I just whispered: “I’m sorry. I thought I was doing something holy.”

And maybe I was.

Maybe someone had to play the villain.

Maybe someone had to break so the world could wake.

So I did.

And the rope held.