Creature of Habit ©️

I wake before the sun stirs. Beneath the water, time moves slower. It hums. The deep currents are my lullabies, the distant screams of the jungle my clock. The world above is already moving—monkeys cackling, birds shrieking their joyless songs. But I remain still. Eyes open. Heart slow.

The light pierces the surface around mid-morning, stabbing through the canopy like a hundred silver knives. I don’t fear the light. It’s the eyes of man I avoid. They come with nets and tanks and chemicals. They smile when they kill. I never smile. I’ve never needed to.

By noon, I rise.

My webbed claws pierce the silt as I push off the riverbed. The weight of water is my armor. I drift past garfish and the bleached bones of past intruders. Once I watched a man drown—he didn’t know I was watching. He splashed. Cried. Then went still. I didn’t touch him. Didn’t need to. The water did my work.

I break the surface just enough to taste the air—humid, rot-sweet, alive. The jungle is a furnace. I smell every reptile and mammal within a half mile. One of them—a jaguar—is watching me from the bank. Smart. He doesn’t drink yet.

I crawl onto land briefly, feel the dry world peel at my skin. The sun cracks my scales. I hate it, but I need to know. Need to see. They were here yesterday—men with cameras and steel traps. The woman was with them. Her scent still clings to the reeds.

I saw her swim once. Not like a fish. Like a flame. She didn’t belong here—too soft, too pale—but she moved like she was born in water. I followed. Close. Quiet. I reached out… and she screamed.

They fired guns then. Hit me in the shoulder. I bled black into the lagoon for hours.

They’ll be back.

By dusk I return to the cave. My cave. Carved by ancient floods, hidden behind a curtain of vines and lies. Inside are bones. Fish, men, birds. I don’t eat the men. Not usually. But sometimes… when the river runs dry and I smell nothing but gasoline and deceit…

The night comes fast in the Amazon. Shadows stretch and finally fold. I breathe in the quiet. Down here, no one remembers what I am. No one tries to define me. I just am.

They call me a monster.

But I only kill to survive. What does that make them?

Tonight, I rest.

Tomorrow, I rise.

And if they come back…

I’ll be waiting.

They’re Inside of All of You ©️

Mushin

It begins as a whisper in the dark, a presence felt rather than seen. The air carries a strange stillness, a chill that settles deep in the bones, a pressure just beyond perception. It is the kind of cold that doesn’t sting or bite but lingers, seeping inward, pressing against the ribs with invisible weight. At first, there is no reason to question it. The world is full of silences, full of moments where the mind wanders and the body tightens without explanation.

Then comes the hesitation. A pause where there was once certainty. A second thought where there should have been action. A feeling, quiet and nagging, that something isn’t quite right. The cold deepens, not in temperature, but in its presence—it is not simply felt but known. The pulse slows. The air thickens. The moment stretches.

A small pressure builds in the chest. A shallow breath that wasn’t there before. The thought takes root: something is wrong. The mind circles it, first as a passing worry, then as an undeniable fixation. The body reacts before the mind can rationalize it—shoulders tense, the hands grow clammy, the throat tightens just slightly.

It is a slow creep, a trick of sensation, a delicate pull on unseen strings. The pulse flutters, then accelerates, like a drumbeat just slightly out of rhythm. There is no clear danger, no tangible force at play, but the world itself begins to shift. Shadows stretch a little too long. Sounds linger a moment past their source. The ordinary loses its shape.

Then the grip tightens.

The moment that was once hesitation becomes something else—a rush of heat, a prickle along the spine, a pounding in the ears. The body prepares for something it cannot name, for something it does not understand. What was a whisper is now a murmur, a sound beneath the threshold of hearing that somehow speaks in meaning rather than words.

It sees you.

That thought arrives unbidden. The world shudders at the edge of awareness. The pulse is no longer uncertain—it is hammering now, each beat slamming against the ribs, demanding movement, demanding release. The breath catches, the muscles coil, the skin tingles with static. There is nowhere to run, and yet the urge is there, primal, insistent.

Then, the break.

The heart surges. The body ignites. The hesitation is gone, replaced by something sharper, something faster. The air no longer carries weight—it crackles, charged with urgency. The cold is obliterated in a rush of heat, of movement, of sheer velocity. The mind doesn’t think anymore—it reacts.

What was once a whisper has become a roar.

The fire spreads, consuming hesitation, devouring every weakness in its path. The world bends to it, twists under its force. Fear is no longer a whispering force in the dark—it is a tidal wave, an inferno, a storm tearing through the void. And just when it feels as if the mind cannot take another second, just when it reaches the precipice of losing itself entirely—

It stops.

The silence returns, but it is no longer the stillness of hesitation. It is something else entirely.

The world is bright. The body, still tense from the surge, now holds something different—something solid, something unshakable. There is no fear anymore, no lingering cold, no whispering doubts. The fire has burned away everything but what is real. What is left is not something hunted, not something chased.

What is left is something that walks forward.

And the sun rises.