I entered dark matter last night. Not through dream or prayer but through a crack in the membrane that holds what we call real. It was quiet at first — the kind of quiet that means pause not peace, like the world taking inventory of every wrong turn ever made. Shapes emerged, soft and luminous, not light but the idea of it. Despair pressed against me, a sensation foreign to the man I’ve become. I knew this wasn’t mine. It belonged to the collective — to everyone who ever said could have been and never was.

The air was thick with unspent emotion. Lies drifted like pollen, attaching themselves to thought until truth became unrecognizable. A lie has no memory. It lives only in repetition, feeding on attention. It doesn’t rot; it recycles. It surrounded me like a field of static, whispering promises that never needed keeping. I watched them pulse and fade, fuel without flame. Dead light from dead stars.

I stood perfectly still. The more still I became, the more it seeped into me — that ancient petroleum of regret. It’s easy to confuse darkness for depth, to think you’re plumbing the soul when you’re really sinking into the waste of countless unfinished prayers. Fighting it only grants it texture, form, relevance. You have to see through it without naming it. To name it is to give it gravity. To observe it is to reclaim sight.

Eventually, I could read the patterns. They were written in motion, not language — a rhythm of collapse and renewal. Everything that had never found its home was mapped there. Old love lived there. Abandoned joy. The unchosen. The unforgiven. Souls floated in the current like insects trapped in amber, timeless, beautiful, doomed. They were not being punished; they were simply unfinished. I reached toward them, and the darkness shimmered as if remembering sunlight.

Then came the moment. The release. To transcend that place, you must cut the cord — not out of cruelty but mercy. You let go of the idea that you can redeem what was never meant to be redeemed. You hand back the burden to the collective and keep only the lesson: that despair is borrowed, not owned; that love unexpressed does not die but disperses; that nothing truly lost was ever yours. When I cut the cord, the dark matter receded, retreating into itself like ink into water.

What remained was silence again, but this time it was mine. The kind of silence that hums — not absence but alignment. I looked around and saw faint initials carved into a tree. They weren’t names, just echoes of presence. Maybe mine were there too, from another life or another version of this one. I didn’t need to check. The point wasn’t to read the carving. It was to remember that it existed — proof that even in the void, something once loved the light enough to write its name.