Mein Kampf ©

Guided by Angels, Powered by Demons


By Me

The following essay might come across as a bit disjointed, but I promise there is a unity that will emerge after reading it a few times. My audience is everyone because everyone has had a part in me writing this perspective on humanity. First, your brain is trying to kill you. If you stop and examine what you are doing at this very moment and you took the time to sprawl (my term for connecting the dots to the obvious conclusion), you would find that you’re headed for the grave. I am here to tell you that there is a line (a set of steps) that if followed precisely and exactly will lead to immortality. A fine line of sanity. I am saying that by some nefarious plan, the human race has come under the control of some dominating force which has usurped control over our lives. Just look around. We are dying for inches. Racism, sexism, and any other number of -isms are just artificial controls. Fighting over oil. I mean fuck, I’ll just walk. I haven’t met a single person who hasn’t wanted more, wanted something that they are afraid to even dream about. You can see it in their eyes. Regardless, there is an oppressive presence working against the evolution of every man, woman, and child that I intend to expose. I can feel it just sitting here writing these words. But each human advancement and this is a big one, comes with a price.

Humans are fundamentally i/o devices that can run any number of programs (driving, having sex, running and walking to name a few). There is an underlying operating system, the genetic code. The genetic code is nothing more than a repository of these stories or programs. I do believe everyone is unique (physical appearance, dialect, personal likes and dislikes) but people, for the most part, are running on the same operating system. It creates the impression of a universal soul or perhaps a universal insanity. Just because everyone is using the same operating system does not however mean that it is the best operating system to be using. In fact, reflecting on the premise that we are under some sort of control, I believe the current OS is, using computer terminology, malware. The good news is the underlying OS is re-writable.

A little about me and none of my details change my premise that through empirical observation, albeit from a different perspective, mankind is in shackles. I have three college degrees, a BS in biology, a law degree and masters of tax law. I come from an upper-middle class family and I have had more opportunity and support than most people. Ten years ago, I was diagnosed with severe bipolar disorder. I had always held a job, maintained personal financial responsibility, and had been in several long-term relationships. A few years before being diagnosed, things just fell apart. Until about four years ago, my life was a downward spiral that certainly was leading to death by accident or suicide. Then my life changed. I decided to beat my mental illness. Typically, with mentally ill patients, the course of action is to dumb them down so much, a virtual lobotomy is performed leaving the patient depressed, despondent, and unable to make decisions. This was the path I walked for a long time. It was in many ways worse than death. Over the course of the last four years, instead of trying to slow the progression of my mental illness, I purposefully tried to speed the process up with the hopes that there was an endpoint. Chemotherapy in kind. It was in this increase of the speed of my thoughts where I started seeing these major discrepancies in what people said and what they did.

I noticed it first in family. It was very unsettling. It took on religious tones. I started seeing certain courses of action followed by family members mirroring biblical stories. It was then I started seeing religion programmatically. It was also then I came to the realization that I could change what ‘program’ I was running. I tried them all. It felt like a game, a high stakes game. A strange dichotomous whirl of good and evil engulfed me. I admit there were ‘voices’ in my head but only in the way that you can hear yourself thinking. None of them told me to go kill anyone or hurt myself. They, for a change, were all supportive in exposing this terrible fraud perpetrated on mankind. By completing some of the tougher levels of the ‘game’, I had for all intents and purposes populated my mind. It felt like what Deanna Troi on Star Trek TNG would call empathic. By sprawling what people said, I could sub-textually talk to them. Help!!! It was all I could hear. Everyone crying out for help. Just a few more things about mental illness. I believe mentally ill people are waking up to what I’ve been talking about. There is a rush to medicate and basically euthanize anyone who is deemed mentally unfit. And yes, talking programmatically, the world does resemble a matrix. Mentally ill people are born unplugged. No worries. You can become unplugged too.

The following discussion does end on the religious tip so just a warning. The world we live in is made up of closed spaces separated by borders. This goes for borders between principalities, celestial spaces separated by atmosphere or fields of gravity, periods of time in history, even life and death. In the current paradigm, because evil and good are two diametrically opposed forces, crossing borders is paramount to going from one world to its opposite. Good here, bad there. You can breathe in the air trapped in the atmosphere of this world but go into outer space or even into water (another border example) and you cannot survive. This started me thinking about life and death. If things are good in this world then did that mean we were just being fed some BS about a heaven. I was raised a Catholic and despite this observation, I still wanted to believe in a heaven as a good place to go.

So yes, I’m saying the Christ in the bible was a perfect illusion. It all became very voodoo. What was Jesus if not a voodoo doll? So, was the Christ in the bible really the anti-Christ? Yes and no. If you read the New Testament as fact, then no, he wasn’t but if you read it as prophecy, then yes, he was. The truth of the matter is there is no story in the genetic code for the New Testament Christ (see below for code). It is pure malware, but it still served a purpose, almost a course correction. Ultimately, his death allowed the human spirit to get off this planet, but it also trapped this resulting energy (what some people call ghosts) off-planet. It changed history. Before the U.S. dropped the nukes on Japan, people were able to ‘talk’ with their deceased loved ones. I have talked to some older people about this recollection and sprawling their conversation, they have confirmed this.

So, the New Testament was a perfect illusion. And it meant that the Light that everyone tells you to go towards after you die… not a good idea. But I’m not faulting the New Testament Jesus for this. It added a new story to our genetic code, the story of the prodigal son. Ultimately, it provided enough pressure on mankind for a micro-cosmic evolutionary singularity.

I have played (under duress) what mankind would call the anti-Christ program. It was terrifying but everyone will have to play it to get to the next level. I’m here to tell you there is no badge of de-merit for following your dreams (the anti-Christ program, the American dream, whatever you want to call it). In fact, if you decide to follow this path, you are assured success. And it doesn’t matter what stage of life you’re at, the pressure is there, right now. It’s time people!!! I rode the Dragon and am here to talk about it

There is no good or evil. With a broad enough perspective, each completes a circuit. Seeing that, I knew it was US versus THEM (the Mulder in me wants to say Aliens but hell, it could just be our unforgiving nature). This essay is just the beginning. It’s a look back. I’m not going anywhere. Together, we can overthrow these shackles and live the life we were meant to. Heaven is possible on earth. Isn’t that what everyone wants? Time with friends and family. Time to explore your innermost desires (artistic, sexual, whatever). Time to be you.

Are you unhappy or feel you could be happier? Interested in immortality? Do you want to be reprogrammed? Want to know more about my story? Contact me at

the prodigal son code
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X,= {UCA, UCG},
X,= {UAA,UAG},
X,= {UGA,UGG},
X,= {CUA,CUG},
X,= {CCA,CCG},
X,= {CAA,CAG},
X,= {CGA,CGG},
X,= {AUA, AUG},
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X12= {AUA,AUG},
XI,= {GUA, GUG},
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It’s Jesus’s job to love, God’s job to judge and my job to convict. ©

Bit by bit, inside him, he would feel a mounting sense of joy. He was conscious of being loved, being taken care of. He began to glimpse pattern and design in all that was happening to him. And suddenly, in trying to express his gratitude, he would reach a language barrier. English could no longer express what he felt. It was simply inadequate for the Being that he perceived. It was at this point that he would burst through into communication that was not limited by vocabulary. His mind as well as his spirit would start to praise God.


Farther On ©

I mean, there’s just this one instant, and that’s what we’re always in. Behind the phenomenal difference there is but one story, and that’s the story of moving from the ‘No’ to the ‘Yes.’ All of life is like, ‘No thank you, No thank you, No thank you.’ And then, ultimately, it’s, ‘Yes I give in, Yes I accept, Yes I embrace.’ I mean, that’s the journey. Everyone gets to the ‘Yes’ in the end, right?


I Need A Second Wind ©

Did you ever have a job that you hated and worked real hard at? A long, hard day of work. Finally you get to go home, get in bed, close your eyes and immediately you wake up and realize… that the whole day at work had been a dream. It’s bad enough that you sell your waking life for minimum wage, but now they get your dreams for free.

In The Aftermath Of The Plague ©

  1. There will be an intensity never before known in everyday life to exchange love and hate, life and death, terror and redemption, repulsion and attraction.
  2. There will be an affirmation of freedom so reckless and unqualified, that it amounts to a total denial of every kind of restraint and limitation.
  3. It will interrupt the continuum of everyday experience and all the normal expectations that go with it.


Achtung Baby ©

A mentally ill man feels completely alienated, utterly alone. He’s an outsider to the human community. He thinks to himself, “I must be totally insane.” What he fails to realize is that society has, just as he does, a vested interest in considerable losses and catastrophes. These wars, famines, plagues, floods and quakes meet well-defined needs. Man wants chaos. In fact, he has to have it. Depression, strife, riots, murder – all this dread. We’re irresistibly drawn to that almost orgiastic state created out of death and destruction. It’s in all of us!!!


Just One Dance ©

Things have been tough lately for dreamers. They say dreaming is dead, no one does it anymore. It’s not dead it’s just that it’s been forgotten, removed from our language. Nobody teaches it so nobody knows it exists. The dreamer is banished to obscurity. Well, I’m trying to change all that, and I hope you are too. By dreaming, every day. Dreaming with our hands and dreaming with our minds. Our planet is facing the greatest problems it’s ever faced, ever. So whatever you do, don’t be bored, this is absolutely the most exciting time we could have possibly hoped to be alive. And things are just starting.

If Your Shoes Can’t Shuffle Around ©

Resistance is not futile, we’re gonna win this thing, humankind is too good, we’re not a bunch of under-achievers! We’re gonna stand up, and we’re gonna be human beings. We’re going to get fired up about the real things, the things that matter! Creativity, and the dynamic human spirit that refuses to submit.


Things I’ve Learned From Covid-19 ©

1- To demonstrate the contrast between what life presently is and what it could be.

2- To rupture the spell of the ideology of commodified consumer society, so our repressed desires of a more authentic nature can come forward.

3- Society is a fraud so complete and venal that it demands to be destroyed beyond the power of memory to recall its existence.


Real Madrid Vs Barcelona ©

Why is world history and evolution not stories of progress but rather this endless and futile addition of zeroes. No greater values have developed. Hell, the Greeks 3,000 years ago were just as advanced as we are. So what are these barriers that keep people from reaching anywhere near their real potential? The answer to that can be found in another question, and that’s this: Which is the most universal human characteristic – fear or laziness?


Say Yes, Pretty Please ©

There’s only one instant, and it’s right now, and it’s eternity. And it’s an instant in which God is posing a question, and that question is, ‘Do you want to be one with eternity, do you want to be in heaven?’ And, we’re all saying, ‘Nooo thank you, not just yet.’ And so time is actually just this constant saying ‘No’ to God’s invitation. I mean, that’s what time is.